Hey all, first post here. I've been wondering if I have Aspergers for a long time now.
I'll try to list the idiosyncrasies and such that make me suspicious:
I'm in college, almost 19 now, and I have some friends, but prefer to be alone most of the time.
I pretty much look down everywhere I go.
I have a sort of awkward gait.
I sit with my hands crossed in my crotch, or very slouched, or in a lifeless way.
I startle easily.
I tend to talk my thoughts out loud.
I feel lost in thought all the time.
I feel very clumsy.
I tend to speak verbosely; a friend once commented that the way I speak almost emulates prose.
I think I do pretty well in school. I tend to be seriously focused on achieving perfection in that regard.
I've been told that as a child I never really spoke, that I had a blank expression, and that I would consistently be drinking warm milk out of a bottle (until I was 5 or so).
I've always had extreme separation anxiety.
Socially anxious.
I feel emotionally numb. I have Dysthymia so I'm pretty much a sad neurotic f**k all the time.
When I speak my pitch tends to fluctuate.
I have a sort of weird accent.
I speak very softly.
I am incredibly cynical.
I speak in a monotone voice, and kind of in a pensive manner.
I am very stubborn, and single-minded.
I stare at the ceiling, or just out into nowhere deep in a train of thought for minutes.
I feel like I lack empathy.
I like watching documentaries about science.
I feel overwhelmed when there's a lot of social commotion around me.
I'm very short with my words; usually I say hey or, what's up to someone I know, but I never look enthused or initiate further conversation.
I don't know when it's my turn to talk in a conversation.
I have weird... speeds.. of saying certain words.
Terrible concentration.
Irritable.
Atypical anger triggers.
I take long solitary walks.
I feel like I don't understand the appeal in what most people find appealing.
I feel like I don't learn anything new.
I'm a perfectionist, and I like routine.
Very obsessive.
That's about all I can think of right now.
A lot of people tell me that I'm making up my problems--that it's all in my head. I really don't know though. What do you guys think? Do I have Aspergers?