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I've always been bullied. for as long as I can remember.

I've never shown any signs though to my family.
I've always just brushed it off, or stored it up adding to built up anger.
When I was younger I didn't always know when I was being made fun of.
It was always easier to blame my lack of friends the other kids by telling my parents that I didn't have friends because they were afraid of me (I looked a lot older than I was), or I'm not good that the new game/sport, or calling someone a friend simply because the new seating chart had us next to each other even though I know that didn't make them my friend...
I knew that to them one of the most important things was for my happiness, I tried a few times to tell them about kids being mean to me; I didn't like how upset they got about it so I didn't tell them anymore. I just wanted them to be happy, too.

But I am ready to tell my family now.
I tried telling my mom once, I broke down. It was on the way to school, I ran out of time in the car.
Later that day I didn't know how to bring it up, my mom never brought it up again either.
I don't want to be bullied anymore, they are getting worse. They make fun of everything I do, even on the bus ride home.
I know that it is my senior year and there are only about 7 weeks left, but it is like the last 15 years (Preschool through High School) are boiling up and about to explode.

What do I do?
I know that the school can't do anything. (not that they would be able to)
I know that my mom doesn't want to talk about it...?

So you have 7 weeks of cr*p left?

Just concentrate on getting through this.

These bullies just want to get a reaction out of you, don't show them any weakness. Soon you will not need to deal with them.

Toughen up your mental armour, you can get through this.

If you need to tell your family or seek counseling then you can find a way to do this.

Neilson pretty much summed it up. Think of it this way, they are probably scared sh*tless especially the way things are out there currently. They are acting out. Not that it justifies anything such as taking it out on you. I went through the same thing in my senior year as well. Just lay low (not cower), and maintain a low profile.

mine has been since pre-school, not JUST one year.

I do lay low. (I don't have friends or aquantances, I don't talk/I stopped talking in second grade, I don't volunteer in class, etc.)



I don't give them any reaction at all, I don't talk. I don't make eye contact with them. I don't look at them. I don't report/tattle on them or tell anyone. I don't sit near them. people always think that I look somewhat annoyed, or have said "you have quite the poker face" since I don't ever show any emotion.
no one has ever got any reaction out of me, Example:
- when I was in 1st grade at recess two older kids broke my nose. I got up and walked into the office ignoring them, the pain, the blood, and trying to ignore all the people freaking out.

Well it sounds like you need to keep in the same groove right now and continue to tough it out.

The only other option is to confront these scum bags but that is an option that requires a lot of strength.

Get through this and make some new plans. Soon this will be over.

It's understandable that you are very frustrated with what has gone on before. I would like to suggest that you find a way to deal with this as soon as possible. Please try find a way to let out this corrosive energy, try to be patient, it may take some time to find what is appropriate.

How do you know your mom doesn't want to talk about it?

Granted, you probably do need to keep toughing it out at school, but she could be a great support for you. As you say, you're ready to talk about it. So the question is more how to start the conversation, right?

Yes I was bullied all the time when I was a kid.

When I get called a name or whatever I usually use it as a chance to express myself. For example I would say something like "you don't know the half of it" or sarcastically say "alright, pick on the disabled guy". It might sound strange but it works.

Also I don't feel this is the best strategy and think if you're a little more proactive and took part more then things would be a bit easier. I would also recommend getting an official diagnosis and joining a support group(if there are any). I was diagnosed when I was in my 20's and feel any support when I was younger would've really helped.

What are you going to do after you graduate--college or work? For what it's worth, college is WAY easier than high school, socially speaking. Many fewer cliques for one thing, which is where bullies seem to draw their energy from.

If you can't bring yourself to tell your Mom, try writing it down in a note.

The note will also help her have some proof and something to go to the school board with, if it comes to that.

You don't have to put up with bullying.

It really makes me angry that schools allow it to go on. I think everyone adult who witnesses bullying and does nothing to stop it should have their job censured or have to atone for it in some way. (I don't mean violence, I mean lawsuit, job loss, docked in pay, etc.)

ETA: You might also seek counseling about it but don't go to the school counselor. Too often they take the side of the school and do nothing about it. Seek a counselor you choose, outside of the school. Then if you ever do sue them, or need legal proof of bullying, the counseling that will also help. (You can add the cost of counseling to the lawsuit or even threaten to sue them for driving you that far.)

Also write down each bullying event in a diary or something like a journal. Date it.

You might start the conversation this way...

Pick a time when both of you have time.

Begin w/the most recent event, "Mom, something happened today (or yesterday) that really upset me, can I talk to you about it?"

If she says yes (& turns toward you, giving you her attention), then you can respond w/something along the lines of: "I'm really nervous talking about this (& then maybe say why you're nervous...I'm worried you won't take me seriously, I'm afraid you'll make fun of me, I'm scared you'll tell me it's nothing)" That should let her know just how important & difficult this is for you. Then tell her about the most recent incident. Hopefully, she'll respond kindly & things can kinda flow from that. She might say something like "I don't understand why you're so upset about that"...don't assume she's blowing you off, assume she really is trying to understand & you can try to explain to her why it's so upsetting...that it's part of a long term pattern, it's humiliating, degrading, insulting, whatever you find it to be. And because it happens day in & day out, it's wearing you down.

In a second scenario, if she doesn't seem particularly interested or clued in to your distress, follow up w/ something like "Mom, I'm going crazy & I really need to talk to you about it, Please listen to me. I'm really hurting." Hopefully that will get her to turn around & pay attention.

If not, then find another person you think might be better able to listen & be supportive. You dad, an aunt or uncle, even an adult family friend. Learning how to find allies is a life skill that will pay long term dividends...there will be situations in college or the workplace wherein you will need allies. And sharing troubles is good for the physiology...