hanyob wrote:
Maybe I'm wrong in thinking this but don't most schools have that one weird kid that pretty much everyone rejects and hates?
I was that kid.
I was hated and teased a lot.
The only difference between me and most people on this forum is that they seem to care about it, while I don't. Ahw well. I guess that most people on this forum can "feel" more than I do and are less disconnected from the outside world than I am then.
I was also isolated, but I must say that I also seeked isolation and never tried to socialize even with the few people that didn't tease me.
This is probably because school is a place I've always hated, too many rules, too much noise and just too much to deal with for me, also listening to someone who's speaking is the worst way for me to learn, and even when I take my med for the attention deficit it's hard for me to listen to someone who's speaking.
And I can't socialize in a place I hate.
But I do seek isolation so it wasn't that bad actually. I passed my time from age 11 to age 13 without a single friend and I have been just fine.
I remember something from a report card when I was 11, where a teacher described me as an aloof girl and a loner that seeked isolation and didn't even turn when she was being called at times.
They even sent me to the school's shrink once when I was 11 and another time when I was 13. I don't know what they said to my parents or my teachers in the end, they send a paper to my parents but I didn't even read it because I wasn't interested.
I also remember that once when I was 12 I was told by a teacher "well maybe it's a little bit your fault too if your classmates don't like you". I don't know why she said that, I don't think I was doing anything really bad to my classmates, maybe it was because I was being selfish but that wasn't really hurting anyone IMO. Also, there was a kid in my class that punched a lot of people but everyone loved him and he was very popular. This doesn't make much sense.