hyperactive/chaotic thoughts

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Yeah, i have that. It gives me internal stress...
Does anybody els have it , or os your thoughts more in order /structured?

when I was a young man, now that i'm old most of that has settled down, much of the time. of course, "much of the time" includes when i'm sleeping.

obsessive ones were useful for many decades as they made me good at whatever was my field of interest.

BUT, concentrating to study and learn (self guided mostly, for the fun of it) can be hell, only short periods are possible.

i also have a BIG problem in settling to anything and also making a choice/ decison of what to do with my time; flip flop indecision i call it. Prev respondents here have cited anxiety as the culprit. I'm 55 now and never wanted to bring a child into the world because of this and some of the s**t experiences I endured, say school, early working life etc.

the only person i ever connected with, an online penpal has gone away, this is hell for me.

every third or fourth day i have to 'get away' into the wide open landscape and de-stress, to listen to nature sounds and silence across wide open spaces. i've lots of interests ranging over many subjects but a lifetime has proven I'll never get conversation on any of it. it wld be cruel to bring a child up in this house, the conversation and subject matter is so in advance of their peers.

Re yr specific question, it used to be worse with me, re chaotic thoughts, say two or three decades ago, prob because inputs too great, pushing myself too hard with constant work, I cld blow ie get intoa rage and I cld tell fro a second this might happen so used to tell my wife 'the red lights flashing' ... expect something ! !

my answer is self employment, books and subjects that capture and focus me, gardening is good too, but after doing it for money i find now I have lost all ability to do anything, indecision with also my brain increasingly is becoming a void, don't know what to do next syndrome ..... I was thinking of paying a person to stand with me as I garden, my garden now feels like the loneliest place in the world.

however, i can gain insights and fresh ways of looking at things that i don't seem to see coming from others, its not all downside being me.

Now that i come to think about it, i dont thing its the chaotic thoughts that starts the stress.. it might me a bad reaction to a surten envirement. Now im at work, and i feel its to much to prosess, visually. But i dunno

When i go outside the stress goes away. I think if i could were dark shades o
It will be better

I kind of enjoy it, I think it's good my topics of interest tend to be pretty interesting at least somewhat universally (Well at least I think so). I'm glad I'm not obsessed with stamp books or figurines or something. (No offense to those that are though) The downsides are I'll tend to become very obsessed on a subject for a short spurt of time which at the time is quite fun, I'd rather be obsessed with an interesting topic than not be interested in anything at all. I don't really give myself enough time with the subject for all the information to really sink in before becoming semi-disinterested and becoming obsessed with something else so it leads me to never really having expertise on anything and just being a pseudo-intellectual on various random things. Also, I wish I didn't have so many social barriers because I think I would actually come off as a pretty sophisticated and interesting person if I was able to speak up charismatically and share my insight on some of these subjects (At the appropriate times), but that's a huge fail usually so I just lock things I learn away for my own entertainment I guess.

When i feel like this (see first post) , could it be sensory issues ?

i stick with subjects, ten years on several over my life, specialist scientific/ technology/ natuarl history

HINT.... wear yr reading specs when with ppl you don''t like, or when having to walk outof doors if this unsettles you ,,,, it makes 'em all fuzzy and indistinct, cuts out the detail that might make you panic or feel paranoid/distressed. I used piriton hay fever tablets fr yrs to block out this s**t.