I met this girl awhile back who's been diagnosed with aspergers when she was in elementary school, and I became very interested on the subject. I can't say that I canrelate to her, but upon research the subject I realized I had a few traits.
I do have a few obsessions. These obsessions always seem to be revolved around people I admire or find fascinating. These people are always on my mind and I find myself daydreaming about them being a part of my life in some way, it's like a crush, but not romantic. If the person is famous I could easily research all I can about them to get a sense of who they are/were. I don't tend to hyperfocus on my obsessions because I'm usually doing multiple things at once and switching back and forth between them. I guess I would call it an obsession in term of frequency, but not really intensity. I can stop what I'm doing and then ho back to it later. I have mild OCD and GAD, and all of my other obsessions are worrying about something, and I drive my mother crazy seeking reassurance that something isn't horribly wrong with me. Also I tend to get obsessed with songs can replay them over and over again because I just love them, but I hear lots of people do this.
I'm able to remember details about people, like there bday.
When I get stressed out, I tend to withdraw or focus on the negative and lash out at people. I tend to throw temper tantrums at home, but they are manipulative in nature, and mostly in my control. I also get really mad when people keep on bugging me, like my brother. I get upset when others aren't very flexible or rigid.
I like to be alone, but only at home. When I'm out and about I love to be with my friends or just with people in general, although I'm shy.
My shyness and my OCD can make me seem awkward at times. I hard for people to get to know me, but I love talking to people.
I make social mistakes occasionally, but who doesn't.
I do not stim or have sensory issues.
I don't mind change in routine or unexpected plans. I actually like it.
I can read facial expressions, get jokes and social cues, and can read tone of voice.
I don't have any trouble looking people in the eye, I always look people in the eye.
I'm pretty laid back or go with the flow, unless I'm stressed out.
I'm a good listener, and people seek me out to talk about their problems because they say I'm very understanding.
I enjoy chitchat.
I like get togethers, but not parties where I don't know a lot of people.
I took they online tests for kicks, and scored NT on all of them. However, I worry a lot and when I research obsessions and things like that all that comes up is info on AS, which kind of freaks my out a little. I don't know. What do you guys think? Am I worrying about nothin? I have issues but, AS in the back of my mind doesn't feel right. Thanks!
20 Jul 2013, 3:46 am
