SDF wrote:
Well I have contacted my mother and she is more than happy to complete the questionnaire. I am thinking though that I may try and persuade her to allow me to sit with her when she does it.
One issue I feel I may have is that throughout my childhood and now adulthood, I have kept everything to myself. My parents have no idea of any thoughts or feelings I had or have now. I never shared anything with them even as a young child.
Early in my life while at High School, I was "Diagnosed" with LD, I assume Non-Verbal. I don't remember ever receiving any paperwork to the fact and my mother never showed me any when she was alive.
I was very concerned that others would label me mentally defective so I decided to cognitively lock it away and never talk about it. I somehow knew then that it would affect my entry into the Army and future employment. And, I thought I would just "Grow Out of it" as I got older and overcome the dysfunction and anxiety.
I believe I have been able to train myself to act and compensate in certain situations, but for the most part, it's still there, especially when I'm stressed. I've only recently told a few close friends I trust. I think for me, a correct autism diagnosis will be a nice confirmation that I was not delusional this whole time!!
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