My life and thoughts on Autism/Asperger's

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Hey all, new member here. I decided to finally join the community and also importantly over a while having been thinking I should put down my notes/views in case they are useful in some way. Before I die one day lol. My apologies for the text below.

Forewarning there could be an issue of my knowledge of Autism and Asperger's, but as far as I am aware the main difference is it's strength and that likely having more impact on the brain with Autism.

Thought to behave different I was diagnosed with Aperger's when I was 23 and with the condition of it thought to be minor due to what they think was minor stuttering/speech difficulty, feeling confused emotionally and my lack of friendship from after my school years. It feels like each day is tough and I'm fatigued. Growing up I did well at school with my grades, didn't have too many friends, partly bullied, and was bias towards my favourite subjects. I spent lots of time around the friends with football, I suppose being sociable (thinking now it could be because it was an interest though), but I also spent a lot of duration around drawing and really focusing on art. Through school I got a bit of help, didn't really understand somethings, liked and did well with Math (I've read about Math and memories link) but was reminded I excelled at art and that subject is where I've heavily put my thoughts in life on. I understand now that with the brain thought to be or become wired differently, it's likely why I couldn't see or think things clearly compared to other kids in the class. I find that I still do and did everything differently, I at work still end up thinking and performing tasks as the other way to do it, as if there's left and right way, I couldn't help but do it the opposite way it's thought. I also understand that it's thought Vincent van Gogh and other artists probably had the condition, supposedly there's a link to an artist thoughts being processed or managed not in the average way? The brain of Autism/Asperger's seemingly to be obsessed with detail and seemingly making the right choices because when you think about it, especially with copying drawing, it's constant guess work.

Further on through life past my education, I have been a builder for the last 6 years, I've been very lacking sociably and too focused on my limited interests.

Anyhow onto my thoughts on what the condition actually is. Yes I do believe it's neurological and the brain can't help but think differently, although I think it's really dependant on the strength. And isn't there a chemical reaction in the brain? Genetic make-up could cause it, I wouldn't say no, but I'm still favouring it not being the cause but the passing of the cortisol hormone's level instead. Out of all the theories that I've read over the years, I do support the lack of cortisol theory to be the most merit-able. I do believe that in the womb where it's effect is thought to be active at child birth, that through life the brain develops depending on the amount of cortisol produced in the mind. No offence but personally with the aspie structure sounding like it's more driven to hard work in life than the average person, I believe it's this pressure that causes someone to be obsessive and put the mind on a subject, whereas a relaxed stable mind contains plenty of the hormone and appears lazy. I'm guessing it's thinking that ages a section of the brain that causes improvement/heightened IQ, as it ages. The other, what must be a big clue, is that it's male dominant. I think from that the stress levels have dropped lower and lower on course through history where a man's life has been more physical. I believe in famous peoples minds that have been rumoured to have it like Einstein, Beethoven, that it was their constant thought that resulted in today where they're thought to be geniuses by the end of their time, that they all had a lack of cortisol and so forth the mind had no choice but to alter it's direction creating a more imbalance and detailed way of thought.

So the majority think it's genetic, but personally I'm more considering it's just the typical, easy thing to say. Personally I consider the human brain to be the ruler of life on Earth. The mind is so complex with the body and itself on what we hear, see, touch, the absurd amount of conditions that have strange spellings too which I think communicates with our genetics because of it's state. I'm coming to the conclusion that the mind is incredibly easy to convince that what it's been told (like religion) and what it think it's purpose is, is key to evolution. That it needs to believe it's purpose, so that it becomes ongoing and contributes to working and building a planet. It may sound peculiar but I've often thought that with the genetics of people creating more people, making everything even more complex and unique, that space adventure will eventually occur and we will find a way living on other planets. Sorta as if we're spreading out and running away. Life is evolutionary survival. Is it a test by God? I'm not sure, I think a child dying unfairly is hardly fair to prove himself/herself unless this lives on after death and in resurrection. I do believe it's downright impossible to say there's no God at this point in time. God could be life itself. Is Asperger's a gift or curse? Neither I believe. There's the reward of improvement (my guess is heightened worrying/thinking) and seeming to stand out and there's lots of activity in the mind, that it seems really alive and puzzled? But I do not think it's a curse as some have suggested, but for science's sake is the lack of knowledge of humanities brain. I mean what would ''worrying'' be if it had no name? How would a person describe it? I know it's a feeling we do not like, but has it been told that? We have made these words up ourselves after all. Disregarding that my opinion is that worrying is confusion/anxiety due to unorganized, unscheduled diverse thoughts stemming from cortisol's lack of. The lack of the hormone promotes all sorts of problems I'm betting, such as an aspies lack of eye contact, social interaction avoidance and constant behaviour. Even thinking of new stuff because thinking of new stuff is the opposite to being repetitive, I believe uses the stress hormone, when our minds have a low amount it doesn't like the idea. Then there's the issues with communications with diet in Asperger's, sensory issues (in my case my parents thought I was scared of some sounds), we now know that there's a vast amount of notes to take you may as well call it an unknown mind. Then there's the conditions link to photographic memory or having a special memory of some type, albeit linked to the poor amount of the stress reliever cortisol is my guess that it gets trapped and more slowly processed, analysis in greater detail. To fathom even a split second could make a big change. Autism's mention of ''bratty behaviour'' also nods towards this hormone. However I think it's the incompetence of parents and alike lacking the information that it is a complex, lively structure with unknown conditions. It is not knowing that's the area to consider. Perhaps though, I'm not so upset with the fact because with the number 1 question of ''What is life?'' unanswered, why should I know?

Welcome to WrongPlanet!

You have some very interesting ideas. The reason that many people believe that autism has a genetic cause is that it, and, in many cases, associated traits, seems to be inheritable; it may be, however, that the tendency to lack or have an access of a certain hormone may be what is genetically transferred.

This is particularly interesting. The law of entropy states that everything goes from a state of order to a state of disorder over a period of time; the increasing complexity of human nature may be an extension of this. Something in this paragraph also reminds me of pantheism, the belief that the universe and all matter within it is one self-aware-or-at-least-semi-self-aware being; my agnostic conjecture is that this entity was once a blank "sheet" of pure energy that somehow was "activated" enough for the waves of energy to vibrate in a way that created matter and that the law of entropy exists so that this entity may one day return to a state of pure energy, it's "natural" state. This also slight converges with the New Age theories of human ascension; humans are becoming more complex (see Starseeds/Indigo Children, if you are into that sort of theory) so that they may access the higher "dimensions" of existence, which could be describes as simply higher states of energy. Perhaps autism and similar disorders play into this ascension?

If you feel that I'm nuts, fear not--most members here are much more sane than I am, lol.

I hope that you enjoy and benefit from this community!

Thanks.

The part that I do not like about this is the belief that genius is rumoured to be an abnormality and there needs to be complex, possibly problematic thinking in order to do really well in a subject; to see or in Mozart's case hear the truth. It's almost sounding cruel to feel pressure and like it's a challenge. Though I do indeed think that it's the thinking and thinking as much as possible is the key for your potential success. I also feel sorry for Einstein, Vincent van Gogh and the others in the sense that they probably were not given the right attention and help they needed. But that's just to do with the world's brain and it's lack of info at the time which I don't blame.

With this and my art I still go by the theory that time passing is the single most vital aspect of unlocking it's secrets in the mind. You get those times where you're looking at a piece knowing it's a mistake, but if you slowly take your time over days or weeks it will tell you what to do; as though it has no choice but to improve. Age with it's thinking come into my thoughts again. It's almost as if it's testing and rewarding you. It's unbelievable, really.

In case you have not yet stumbled upon it, you may enjoy the Politics, Philosophy, and Religion subforum; such matters as existence, genius, and the state of humanity are often discussed there. http://www.wrongplanet.net/forum20.html

I do agree that this viewpoint is unpleasant. Then again, the very definition of a "genius" requires abnormality, as the definition of the word is intellect or talent that exceeds the expected norm: "1. exceptional intellectual or creative power or other natural ability," according to the Oxford dictionary. There are many powerful, wonderful, innovated thought processes that most humans possess, thought processes that allow for creation, manipulation, and innovation, that are not considered "genius" simply because they are common; the ability to read, for example, requires that many individual symbols (letters) be analyzed in context to the symbols around them (creating words), which is then used as yet another symbol (meaning of words) in conjunction with other symbols of symbols (words combined with words to create sentences). Such thinking is truly phenomenal, though many people do not see it as such, as reading is so commonplace.



I agree; as with anything, the more that one thinks, the easier it is to think, and, thus, the more natural thinking becomes.