You need to speak with a doctor about these things, and possibly a social worker.
Since you don't seem to have English as a first language, I'm guessing you're not in the States. Exactly what services are available to you, medical and otherwise, are better known to you than to us.
Are you on the spectrum? Do you have a doctor who knows you are? Have you spoken with your doctor about these symptoms?
You're leaving so much out of your story, it's hard to know what to tell you. We need more information.