Sorry for the long post , but I'm confused and worried and I'm losing friends , I don't know if I should continue with who I am or try to change.
Look , this all started in May 2012 , I got mugged by these people , it was all to do with me giving my money to this person so he could look after it for me , he said he would keep 1 pound of it , I then said You can't do that.
everyone including my friends gone against me , and said it was just a pound and I should just accept it , I tried getting it over the next half hour or so , they were all chucking it around and that , and then the kid who took my money wanted me to fight him , I'm being honest now , I could have easly taken on that kid , he was overweight and could barely walk but I didn't want to , I didn't want to hurt him , I don't like hurting people I saw it as an unnesscary way of getting things.
Anyway , the only damage I sustained in the event was a punch to the face by a stronger more older boy after I tripped him up while he was trying to steal my money.
Luckily one of my friends came to there senses and stopped these people trying to get me , they kept all of my £5 I had on me and I generally felt quite sad.
I didn't tell my Mum until a month later , she said something would be done , my Grandad came up who worked with the Police and said things will be done to get justice.
1.6 years later , and nothing has been done , these idiots are still allowed to roam about and they have a good life , they have plenty of friends and they get all the good stuff , and it made me angry , all these broken promises and the way things work made me very angry.
Since then I've adopted an attitude of not taking s**t from anyone , the first person I took ' justice ' on was a fellow classmate who wouldn't give something back , I got up and smacked his head on a table a few times , then I had it back.
I've down various things since then , like the same kid shot a BB gun at my face , so I threw him to the floor and attacked him.
He then said sorry , and I accepted it.
In this one incident though , this boy who I didn't know took my printed paper , or so I thought I gone up to him ripped it out of his hand and found out it wasn't mine , it was like an instinct my mind was certain he had something of mine.
Anyway skipping to the present , my temper is getting shorter and shorter , and my friends keep calling me stupid and such and I hate it , they keep calling me other things , I don't call them anything and I am starting to think I should , it would be good for them to have a taste of there own blood , they keep dis believing things that I KNOW happened , and that makes me angry aswell , it's like today during an argument with my friends in Science my voice kept getting higher and the girl next to me tried to attack me because I wouldn't ' shut up ' I simply put my hands up and made sure she didn't hit me , it was lucky I didn't hit her in the rage , although part of me is thinking she deserves it another part dosen't , but she didn't get told off AT ALL , and that is one of the worst things that keep happening to me , the others don't get punished , I GET PUNISHED , and I've had enough.
Although recently I've been wondering wheather I've had an anger problem , one part of my mind is saying that I don't and everything I'm doing is justifiable and I'm right , the other part is saying I need to calm down and try to sort things out , I don't know what to do , I feel as if I should give an apology to 2 of my friends after we had an argument over Skype an hour or two ago , but again part of me believes this cant and won't happen.
So what should I do? Do I have an anger problem? Am I a good person?
BTW sorry for the long Block of text , but there was no other way I could shorten this.
20 Nov 2013, 4:18 pm
