Autism books and Anger

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I am just curious if anyone else has difficulty reading autism/Asperger books.

I have not been officially diagnosed, but the more I learn about ASD's and the more I learn about myself, I realize that the way I was treated in the past screwed me over. And this makes me really angry.

I think a lot of it had to do with people who had good intentions, but were simply misguided. I can forgive this. It makes me sad, but I can forgive.

Some of it was apathetic people or people in denial. I understand how our educational and medical systems can create this. But I would still like to tell these people "screw off"

In a few instances though people with emotional issues/denial just took it out on me. And to them I want to say "You knew better, how could you?"

When I read something, that brings up these memories. I feel some very strong emotions, and then just kind of shut down for a little bit. Next time I go to read, I am anxious it will happen again.

I had the same reaction. I finally felt like I had a reason for how I was and that made me feel vindicated and justified in being angry about a lot of my childhood. I probably do have the right to be angry about a lot of it but I found I got over it and feel better letting it go. I think it was just a step I had to go through.

One thing that helped me move on was also understanding that even though some people where just bad a lot of the people didn't know what to do with me any more than I knew what to do with them. Not trying to make excuses for them but maybe understanding their perspective.