All I know is that I'm socially awkward. I believe that I'm able to pick up on social cues (although this may have been from the help of my primary school); I think that I wasn't able to make eye contact with people out of shyness. The only problem is, I'm poor at sustaining conversations in social groups and I feel uncomfortable by those who appear to have ASD, because they remind me of what I want to avoid in the first place.
Because I haven't got a network of friends, I've developed different interests from them. Sometimes, I'm intensively obsessed with them and then just give up on them. However, the only interests that have become addictions in my life have been the Internet and video games, which have somewhat affected other areas of my life (I'll explain in another thread).
People have told me that I simply needed more confidence, but I feel that whenever I feel most confident, I'm kinda ignored in group conversations. I also don't really assert myself when I want to place myself with a certain group of people in terms of group work at school, because I feel like I'd just annoy the group of people I'm with.
I used to be sensitive to loud noises, but I've only somewhat gotten over that; the sort of noises I fear most of the time come from an angry adult.
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20/12/2013: Xal zö'as tô ithagvarl eáqeol qe. - Today, I saw they dressed in clothes of a man. (translated from Ithkuil)
I'm sorry if my posts tend to be chaotic.
27 Dec 2013, 1:03 pm
