It's been a long while since I posted my last thoughts on my autism and I think that this would be a good time to write something new , at least from my perspective, on how I view my autism. My thoughts on it have been divided into a blessing and a curse.
Blessing.
What is the most obvious blessing on having Asperger's? Ever since I graduated with a B.S in biology last year, my determination as well as my near perfect memory can be attributed to my Asperger's , at least from the positive aspects of having this mild form of autism. Another is my obsessive need to understand how the world works, at least the biological aspect of the world if not the usual neurotypcial aspect of the world, and where I am right now, I am currently looking for a job in biology and while I'm waiting for that to happen, I am doing serious amateur biology experiment, mainly to satisfy my desire as well as to practice basic lab skills.
Curse.
I'm sure that the most obvious curse that you can all relate to is the fact that it hinders my ability to relate to people face to face. Even at my adult age, I sometimes have difficulty making eye contact as well as trying to maintain continous speech with someone. My speech with other people tends to be fragmented a bit, I don't think it has that continous flow in which neurotypicals are natural at but the most frustating aspect of it is me not forming long lasting relationships. Honestly, not a day goes by when in the safe comfort of my mind, I think about relationships and even having a future girlfriend which has been the most enduring thing in my mind but can never manifest it in practice.
01 Jan 2014, 9:58 pm
