huge emotions

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I was wondering if anyone else has this.
When I experience emotions, it's like they come in a wave, and it's huge and I don't know how to handle them. When I'm in pain, my emotions really hard to handle.
I think part of it caused by me either suppressing emotions, or being on meds that lowered them lot; so now I have emotions they are very big.
Does anyone else experience this?

Yes, it happens to me all the time. One minute I'll be feeling perfectly normal and calm, and then a random thought, or a song lyric, or something said on the television will trigger a tsunami of emotion, usually an overwhelming sense of sorrow, or regret, as though I've managed to miss out on everything good about being alive.

But I've noted before that something about the neurology of autism may have limited the subtlety of the range of emotions available to us, but tries to make up for it by making the emotions that we do have extremely intense. I don't know if I've ever experienced "joy" (maybe for a moment when my daughter was born), but I'm all too familiar with PASSION and RAGE and DESPAIR. Probably the most subtle form of emotion I have experienced on a regular basis is whimsy.

This is a big thing for me at the moment, because I came off the last psych med last year, and a lot of stuff - memories as well as emotions - is resurfacing.

I'm very analytical with intrapersonal stimuli, and I feel like I'm old enough now to be able to process the emotions better than when I was still a teenager, and dissect them, and ultimately just learn to let them happen with the knowledge that I am not just the sum of my momentary feelings. It's still hard though. I feel like I've got 10 years of emotions and harmful life situations that I have to shovel through all at once, instead of in real time, over a period of a decade. It becomes all encompassing, like you said. I become nonverbal and immobile a lot of the time.

I get that sometimes too and I am not on any medication. When it happens it can be overwhelming. Sometimes I don't even need any specific trigger, it just comes. I think it's kind of cool and strange at the same time. But Willard I think you are right. I tend to have very few emotions that I feel in a subtle way and many more that I feel at extreme intensity.

absolutely! I posted something about this the other day, how I have what seems to be "delayed meltdowns". a professor once told me that I feel things very deeply. it's simple, but it really is true.

I don't understand why, but I could be doing anything at all, and I'll just burst into tears or crazy laughter and feel. I also can't seem to notice when emotion is building up either, and it always gets me like a brick to the head. Last week I was at the grocery store and burst into tears and crushing despair while bagging broccoli. Still have no idea why.