TheCrookedFingers wrote:
All my life I've performed very well in school with little or no work. Now I'm in university and I'm getting unexpectedly low grades. Sometimes I know I should be studying, I want to study, I like the subject even, but I just feel like I have no energy, or I end up doing something else for "just five more minutes" until it's too late to study anyway. I am the same way with house chores, diy projects, taking showers...
When I do get around to do something, then I can go on for countless hours. I'm on lesson break to prepare some exams and I end up studying very intensely one day, then slacking off for two, then studying like crazy for one...
I've tried making schedules, having a fixed routine, but I just end up ignoring them.
I'm feeling very disappointed, anxious and guilty, but the more guilty I feel the less motivated I am to do what I have to do.
How do I know if my problems with procrastination, distractibility, lack of motivation, are due to executive dysfunction or if I'm just lazy?
How do I get help if I've always excelled academically?
I don't have a solution, but I can tell you it's a common Apsergian characteristic. I'm not sure how much of it is rooted in poor Executive Function or whether there's something else involved, but it is clearly neurological and not simply laziness. If it were laziness, it could be overcome by concentrated effort or developing new routines and in my experience, there is nothing that will cure it. I struggle with it in one aspect of my life or another every day.