Strange emotions

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I am 21 and have AS, and for almost as long as I can remember I have gotten strange, garbled emotions that normal people (I'm pretty sure) can't feel. Some of them are warped variations of normal emotions that usually occur out of the blue. Some examples are an extremely intense, sick version of nostalgia, a mixture of jealousy and terror, an evil-feeling sadness, or a nostalgic, bittersweet empathy. Sometimes when I laugh I get a warped bittersweet emotion, which is so annoying. At age 10 or 11 I got horrible mixture of guilt and sheer terror each night (maybe my own version of panic attacks). Also I watch anime but, like nothing else, it triggers so many annoying, bizarre, and persistent emotions that I have to take long breaks from it.
Others are meaningless emotions that are not similar to any standard emotions, that are emotions of their own category. There was one especially bizarre and intense emotion when I could not tell whether it was positive or negative; I could not tell whether I was feeling great, horrible, or neither. Explaining them is like explaining a color that doesn't exist.
I never asked my psychiatrist about this for some reason. Lately this has been happening a lot again. I have been searching online so much but can't find anything. Do any of you get anything like this? Is this even a symptom of autism, or something completely different?

Welcome to WP.

I don't know if it's an Autism thing but I get that a lot. I have tried to explain it to others before. I also get the color feelings.

Welcome

I don't know if that's the same but I get that a lot too. I get a lot of weird intense nostalgia for weird things, places, situations.
Basically I can hardly ever exactly describe how I feel. Often I just feel numbingly, statically overwhelmed with a hint of sadness, apathy, sarcasm and sheer panic. I feel places and atmospheres a lot which is bad because I tend to escape into these feelings.

It's annoying.

Interesting to know that other people get this too. I think it must be an autistic thing and wish there were more information about it. And yes it can be extremely annoying sometimes.
(Also thank you both for your welcome.)