Flailing.

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For the past couple of hours or so I've been feeling strange. I can't decide whether I'm anxious or restless or something else. All I know is I can't really focus on things. Not even things I like. I've been trying to read but I only managed to read four pages before giving up. I've been trying to watch an episode of a TV-series but I can't focus on that either. Feeling like this (anxious or restless or whatever) is really bothering me and it makes me feel negative feelings I can't really identify at the moment (depression? Anxiety?).

I just went to get a glass of water and while I was waiting for the water to turn really cold I started flailing/shaking my arms and hands violently to sort of get rid of all the excess energy or whatever it is that I'm feeling (doing it a little between sentences when writing this as well). I don't really know what to do with myself when feeling this way so I flail my arms sometimes (when alone). I sort of like the feeling I get afterwards.

I don't know if I'm autistic (I'm currently getting assessed) and I don't know what behaviours are classified as stims. Wondering if what I just described is a stim though or just something else (you probably get this kind of question a lot, sorry if I'm annoying). What do you think?

Also, do you do similar things when feeling weird like this?

PS. My neighbour is talking really loudly and I can hear him through the wall. It makes me feel anxious, agitated and irritated again. I really dislike that. I hope he moves out soon.

EDIT: I feel a bit stupid for posting things like this and part of me thinks I should delete this post. I guess I'm just trying to figure things out. The assessment creates a lot of questions and it makes me think of a lot of things I do in my everyday life. Do you know what I mean?

Please don't feel stupid or delete the post. It's a very good post and an excellent question and I am sure many can relate. I would think the flailing is a stim since to me it sounds like you may be overstimulated and your body needs to release that. When I am overwhelmed, overstimulated or sometimes exhausted, I get like you were where I don't have the mental capacity to figure anything out. Usually a good rest in a quiet dark place helps me tremendously when I am like that. Sometimes a good meltdown helps too. Keep us posted on how your assessment goes and whether you are on the Spectrum.

I think I do this, too.
Please don't feel stupid, I don't think you are.

Start by checking out the basics. Are you hungry/angry/lonely/tired? Is your blood sugar low? Eat some protein and low GI foods. See what happens.