Feeling Different from Both Autistics and NTs

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I was only recently diagnosed so maybe I'm feeling like this because I haven't met many autistics yet.

I did very well in school, had a few good friends, was very rarely bullied or discriminated against. When I read about some of the things others had to go through, I feel ashamed or fake because my life went by fairly well. I do remember getting punished many times for not wanting to wear a particular dress to church or accidentally saying something rude, but I've since forgotten all of those incidents and just don't care about them anymore because my life now is just fine.

When I talk to NTs, I don't understand them. I can pass very well in their world (most of the time). I might feel like this because I can't tell if they are being mean to me. I guess I'm just confused.

Anyways, when you were first diagnosed, did anyone else feel this way?

Everyone is unique, and a diagnosis is only one kind of lens through which to examine yourself.

I recently received a diagnosis at a late age and feel kind of disoriented about it, and this kind of surprises me, because I was pretty sure already, and I had some major symptoms as a child. Life does tend to be confusing. If you are functioning OK now, that is the important thing.