Self Worth and Anger

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I want to find out if any others with AS have major issues with self worth and self esteem...having periods of time where they consider themselves as being worthless and get angry as a result? I find that I at times get terribly down on myself, and put myself down constantly and as a result end up raging at myself.

Anyone else or am I the only total nutter here?

Nope, your not alone. I regularly go through phases of deep depression and worthlessness, and then come out of it and am as normal as can be under the circumstances. However, the older I get without achieving a bachelors degree( and, in turn, respect at my job) the deeper the valleys are getting. If my rate of decline over the last 20 years continues unabated, I can't see how I'll be here in 10 more years.

That is the feeling I am getting. I can deal with the feelings of self worth, but it is the anger and rage I experience as a result that throw me off as they can be very self destructive and make me appear totally insane lol. I am so glad I am alone when I get such episodes. It is like a huge ourpouring of built up frustration etc etc. I was not sure if this is an AS issue, the low self worth, or just something that can exist in those with AS as a result of the isolation etc.

I have been feeling like this lost recently, however, I've hung on, and I'm starting a new job tomorrow as an editor, so maybe there's some hope for me. I'd like to replace the anger and hopelessness with peace and satisfaction.

After 3 failed attempts at a degree, here is how I look at it now. I learned something from every attempt. I'm a better person for them. You will see more then a few here, that are self taught. Where there is a will, there is a way.

We're supposed to feel worthless, haven't you noticed?

What's frustrating for me is actually believing it and not just feeling it, sometimes, you lose faith.

Yes, I can relate to this, as there has been times over the years where I've felt like a sub-human from the notion that, often I've not done well with various occuopation or the embarrassing fact, I've had troubles in the area of social connections--i.e. Friendships or Relationships lasting. Still, I try to keep my head above the water and not let myself get too down in the doldrums but, it's not an easy task however, I keep on trying.


Professor X