Summer is making me miserable

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The title says it. The summer has kicked in were I live, and although I would want it to be a pleasant time it is turning me into a miserable person. I have a new accommodated job where I work half days, but even by the time I get to work my head has started to shut down by a combination of the changing temperatures, the bright light from the sun and not least way too many noisy people everywhere. At work I'm getting so drained that I'm barely able to find things to do and to follow even the bare amount of social conversation which is probably making me look very slow and off. By the time I'm finally going home I'm so drained that I go home irritated and bitter at everything and everyone with a mean look on my face.

Don't know if I can stand it if this keeps up. What I've covered is even just the main things. There's also the very uncomfortable feeling of not being able to have my jacket on when I'm outside because it's so warm and everyone walks around in shorts and t-shirts, as well as having to change to new appropriate clothes to wear every day which is messing up my mind. Tons of people who chat, laugh, connect and have fun and who all, every single one of them, are forever "off bounds" to me in any capacity. It feels almost like they're just rubbing me in the face with all that they are, and all that I'm not.

The heat is already getting to me and it hasn't even started yet, the weather has been pretty mild here. Most of all it's the sunlight though, I feel like I'm looking at a washed out, overexposed version of reality. I feel drained during daylight hours then just about the time it gets dark, and I start feeling better, it's supposed to be time to go to sleep.