I am stuck in what seems to be a seemingly endless rut. Here's the story
My mom hurt her arm, she tore a rotator cuff because at her previous job she twisted wrong and it suddenly went out on her, now this was back in March. Her doctor told her that she needs surgery next month to recover from it, in which I have no family or other means of help that can pitch in to assist in this type of a situation. Certainly it wasn't my fault this happened she used to take care of a little girl and the girl did something to it or some ****??? Don't remember and I remember a doctor hurt it worse. As for me I have no purpose to wake up in the morning and have been angry and bitter that the whole world has treated me like utter crap and despite how nice I am to people they just simply won't give me a chance in hell because, for some unknown reason, they don't want to be friends with someone who has SA. My dad is sorta cold and aloof but he has gotten much better over the course of these couple of months, he's treating me better than he used to and actually acknowledges my existence for once, however he works all the time. I basically have no way to get out of the house because the public transportation system here sucks and there's no Access Link. So I'm at a loss as to what to do and my parents are leaving it up to me to decide what my next move is when I've tried basically everything I can possibly have thought of, and now I try to tell people I need help and sadly, nobody listens. Need some advice on this. Thanks. By the way my mom has been occasionally been taking me out to things but she won't be able to once she is operated on in about three weeks so its the injury causing this problem. I do have a job but I hate it, and sadly everyone there is rude to me. Not sure why.
