pride in who you are and how im feeling right now.

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as of late ive become tired of hidding who i am. its not the first thing i would tell people if i met them but yeah, i have aspergers and im kind of done hidding it. i feel like ive either ben hidding it or living a stereotype ever since i became more self aware and i feel like i want to be able to be who i am without having to do either of those things. i dont care if it makes it harder for me to get a job or people dont treat me as well or whatever, im not disabled really. im just diffrent and if i realise my strengths and have pride in myself i can make my life work. i dont want to be some weird shut n nerd who never leaves his house anymore or the weird kid in the corner who everyone makes jokes about either. i dont want to live a stereotype and i want to have pride. i dont know if anyone else has had this experiance but i just feel like ive finally realized that theres not that much really wrong with me so much as diffrent and especially with aspergers no longer being a thing i just felt like societies been telling me i was a cripple and i kinda just felt like i was. ill probably be leaving this website and sites like it as well. i dont wanna be limmited to this little box full of special people anymore. i dont know if anyone else feels this way but i would LOVE to hear back.

If you don't feel a relief in being in a place like this, then it is highly likely that you never belonged here.

maybe i dont. maybe i dont.

the-comander I had teachers call me ret*d because I would test low in one area of a test even tho I excelled in others I have had various labels thrown on me based on assumptions not facts and yes I too thought I was a cripple it wasn't until recently I found that I have Autism that in it's self put to bed a lot of insecurities about my self in that no I am not "ret*d" as a few teachers thought I was no I am not XYZ but rather this. Do I have pride that I am Autistic? No... I don't have shame either I have an acceptance of whom I am I am more sure of my self and know what my limits are.

I don't go out of my way to tell every Tom Dick and Harry that I have Autism I only tell those whom may need to know (such as the staff in the college where I am taking my GED tests) and/or close friends and a few relatives. I too have started to break out of my own word to explore the vast world around me even tho I'm doing so in small steps.

You make life work out to how it's best for YOU.

i have an i.q. in the avredge range. some things are higher or lower but i dont think a teachers ever called me a ret*d, least not to my face. iv always come off as smart. maybe f****d up in the head, i have no dought some of my teachers thought i was insane, but i was never slow i was a very intelegent child, maybe even a bit more then most kids are. i wasnt a super genuis or anything, but i was into more abstact concepts then most kids would be and i was very wordy. only time ive really been called ret*d is by kids in sped who are very vissablly............................ i guess the politically correct term is mentally impared or something like that, i think ive called myself a ret*d once or twice when i felt like s**t, but i dont think thats how most people see me.
my plan is not to tell everyone on the face of the f*****g planet i have it the plan is not to blatently lie or hide who i am anymore, i can do some things better then most people can do and i think thats something to be proud of. i have strengths and chalenges but at the end of the day im not really that effected by it (i have aspergers so its probably easier for me then it is for some people im fairly pulled together, maybe a bit odd but im not crippled in quite the way some of you are) and i am me. maybe your life is harder then mine, i dont know. i had a lot more issues when i was a kid and now im pretty much fine. am i normal? no but theres not much thats really deeply wrong with me. i just want to be happy with who i am. i have a lot of freinds and most of them already know and my family knows to. im not going to tell every single person i meet, but im also not going to hide who i am anymore, and i know people will judge me for it and i know sometimes this will make my life harder, but i have not been proud of who i am in so so long and ive never really stoped and thought about it but some of my skills and some of the things i can do well are definatly related to my diagnosis. i guess i can understand how you feel though, its how ive felt at verious points. i think a lot of the issues i had when i was little kinda disapered as i grew up and i feel like the label might aply to me less then it did then.