I am ashamed to say that I am the same way, though since allowing myself to stim, to not be perfect, to not expect myself to be someone I am not (the do-it-all sort of woman who is the picture of perfect womanhood), to allow myself to take breaks and to monitor my emotions and recognize them as emotions, and reading my Bible to remind me of what I really need to be, I hope I am making it better. I hate myself for it and feel guilty every time someone says that to me, that I seem so laid-back and patient, but no amount of telling them otherwise seems to make them believe me unfortunately. They seem to think that you are not aware of your own good parts. It is true that we all, all people tend to focus on our negatives, but I need practical advice for this, not just "Oh, I can't imagine you being angry!" It's worse if I don't respect my limits as far as sensory exposure or underexposure are concerned. It's mental overload too, like all that results from executive dysfunction. I also notice that I "borrow" or absorb other people's emotions and feel them as my own and consciously acknowledging that those emotions are not mine, helps. It was a tendency reinforced by the household I grew up in; I wasn't trained to deal with it then and couldn't then because I had too many needs myself and too many demands placed on me. So there are a lot of things I am having to deal with now.