My mom is always making fun of me for the way I dress, she says that I don't represent myself in the way other boys who are 20 do. I wear the same outfit a lot and can go days without showering, it's just I forget about these kind of things when I am so zoned out and out of it. It's hard because we fight everyday - yelling and screaming. It's very violent and sad, verbally. It's just so exhausting because I think she feels like she is doing so much to try to help me and none of it is making me more neurotypical or healthy in the way she says yet my therapist says I've made miraculous breakthroughs and am in a good place. It's funny how that works? I think she has such a hard time understanding why I am the way I am. I almost failed elementary school, dropped out of high school to write for music magazines and eventually wrote a book out of my hypergraphia and special interest, and got a book deal but she doesn't see that as success. She sees me working at you know a retail job and going to college and crushing beers as what she wants for me
14 Dec 2014, 2:45 pm
