I sometimes feel like my brain is battling me, attempting to obstruct any progress I make.
About a year ago I asked some family members about how they filter/socially scan their thoughts, and not say them to someone else, the gem of advice I received was "just don't say those weird things". But how do I know whats weird before I say it? "If you think its weird just don't say it" But to me it's a perfectly reasonable thing to say? "It's not, how do you not know these things? Did you talk like that in work?....etc"
Solution? Just shut up.
Anxiety and Depression are my brains foes, it feels like I'm always trying to recognise their effect on my perception of the world, compensate for it, and know that what I'm feeling is not rational. They make filtering the brain to mouth thoughts much more difficult.