How do you function???

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Woke up at 10AM and did laundry in the washer dishes but then waited for it to get done so I could put it in the dryer so didn't start on anything fun (AKA a video game) since OMG! the dryer might beep! Went to put up dinner later the chicken and dad was saying I don't think of others only myself but IMO that's my "routine" is pick up dinner dishes and wash them and clean off counters which = putting away the food. NO I didn't think "hey mom isn't home yet I'll leave it out for her" since I don't tend to think like that.

Dad was upset I don't know how to cook and complained I was going to put microwave macaroni in the toaster oven (It said conventional so I assumed you could switch them out.) He suggested I help mom cook dinner which I do on rare occasions.

But doing all the above chores then bickering from dad no enjoying myself with a video game or relaxing I'm stressed! and upset! Not "depressed" or crying but I can't see myself go go go everyday at a job or life without down time to relax in-between or SOMETHING!

How do some of you function at a job or daily life without wanting to break down (either crying breakdown or screaming breakdown or just depression breakdown forget it I'm just going to bed is how I feel sometimes.) Hope some of you can relate and have some tips thank you.

I do not function in a job or something, am on disability, (but I do volunteers work to the limit I can),
live semi-independant but not with parents
but best to get chores done to me (but I am not stable in that yet)
I write lists and lists and lists into detail and the writing is drawing as well,
and in moments it feels like kind of a special interest putting the whole focus on writing lists and what's on the lists,
but I get very easily out of balance with small changes in routines, but
important issues like paying bills are not in my responsability, I could not cope by now, but hope I will improve.

Thanks. I'm on disability too but may end up losing it which means get a full time paying job meltdowns Autism be damned!! !! ! Just hope I don't end up breaking myself suicide risk over it. I don't think I could handle go go go EVERYDAY! Mom just told me "you seem stressed" I said no I'm fine and left it at that. Hope tomorrow isn't go go go and I can relax with a game or SOMETHING! CALMING! SHEESH!! !!