talking as stimming

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I stim when emotionally I feel...off, torment. This morning was the first time I'd ever made random speech-like sounds or just strung meaningless words together as a way of soothing myself. Usually I rock or pat myself or something else repetitive that involves physically moving.

It worked really, really well. And if anyone would have seen me I'd have looked completely nuts. Anyone else stim with sounds or words?

During meltdowns I try to calm myself by rocking while whispering repeatably "camdau, camdau"(I try to say English "calm down" but "camdau" comes out). Does that count?

Other than that I have vocal stims but they are nothing like words. Except maybe the "tsk" sound I make when I see something upsetting - I picked this one from watching anime and it became a habit. Other my vocal stims are "meow" when I am embarrassed(this one is more a tic than stim though) and tongue clicking when I am bored.

When I'm anxious, frustrated, or reaching sensory overload, I'll hum to myself, one continuous note repeatedly. It feels like I'm putting up an electrostatic barrier and protecting myself from the external stimuli, or whatever it is that's upsetting me. When anxious or excited, I'll also repeat lines of dialogue from movies and TV shows over and over to myself, just the same line or phrase, until I feel better. It feels like having a lifeline to cling to, and when I stop before I'm ready, it's like I can physically feel my security dropping out from under me.

The time I accidentally missed my therapy appointment and thought I was going to have to reschedule for the following week, I had a mini-meltdown, and afterwards, when I determined that I'd be able to get in to see my therapist in two days instead, I was relieved, but still so wound up that I spent twenty minutes to half an hour pacing up and down in my room, flapping furiously and just saying, "Okay, okay, okay,okay" over and over again as fast as I could. It was exhausting, but that was the point; before that I felt like I was going to crawl out of my skin.

If I'm really stressed I tend to talk to myself but I don't really make sense either. Only if I'm overwhelmed by something and I tend to freeze in position as well. But hardly ever