Kezzstar,
I have passed for normal, just a trick, but they work. It is a lot like talking to a television, as long as you stick to the program, you can fit in, but one thing out of the range and it all falls apart.
My imaginary friends on the other hand can discuss anything in an insightful manner.
Being normal, having a job, going to the university, I did it, but it took years to get back to my education. Self employment paid better, and without the creative, my writing, I am nothing.
I do not mind boring others, but when I bore myself, change has to come. My greatest gifts, those make me happy, and they have to be protected. One day in the world, and I write nothing for a week or two. Everything is flat, no zip, no zest. The real me lives deep within, and has work to do.
When stories flow from my keyboard, I am happy. The rest of the world can feel left out, they are. They exist to read what I write, not to change me.
My best faking skill is to project into the future. I know I pause when asked a question, so I get there first, and by the time they catch up, I am repeating myself. You are out with your Mum, Mrs. Soanso comes toward you, you know what she will say, and have time to create an answer before she asks, people are very predictable. Mostly they like to speak of themselves, so saying Hello, can be followed with how is your, child, dog, cat, health, and they will take it and run with it, just nod a few times and they think you wonderful. Finish with a happy but vauge concern, and off they go.
The problem with aspies is everyone expects social control, and we are a blank, it is mindless, but it can be controled with ease. They do want to be run, just keep them on their own track. It is called lying, and it is expected. Keep truth for your writting. Lying makes them happy, and they will think well of you.
Once you find out how easy they are to run, you will lose your fear. Reherse, then peddle echos. A lot can be learned from watching dogs. They do not know what to expect from strangers, but a "What a cute puppy," gets them every time, that was always a good sound, a few pets and a scratch behind the ears and you have a friend for life. Humans are not nearly as complex, and you don't have to touch them, though a pat on the shoulder works wonders on some. Of course, you should wash your hands as soon as possible.