I'm Extremely more or less autistic on different days??!

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My post got lost. Second try. Der post, please do not delete yourself again!

I have this confusing problem.
Some days I'm totally autistic. I can't look in people's eyes at all. I do not understand spoken language if it's not 100% clearly expressed (lots of misunderstanding and confusion and not understanding at all). I feel cut off from the physical world and am trapped within myself.
On the other hand on certain days I do not have (or have much less) of the above problems. It's like Bipolar disorder, but with autism!

I have my theory. I believe after being "autistic" for a while i gain energy. so when I gain energy I start to behave like an NT and also try to apply to college and university and look for dates online what not and cause myself stress and that catapults me to "autistic mode" again due to overload. But I'm not sure. could it be this?

A nice person also replied to the deleted post and said everyone, Aspie or NT has different kind of days. makes also sense.

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I believe your theory is entirely correct! I feel like that. Even within the space of a single interaction, I become more or less autistic. For example, I had to attend training on Tuesday this week from 9:30 - 15:30, non-stop social interaction and "learning" i.e. training! I even had to spend lunchtime with the trainer and the people being trained. I had no respite. At the start, I'm such a snazzy socialiser. I know exactly what to say. I know what to do. By the end, I'm stupefied. I can't concentrate. The lights are too bright. I'm punching myself, tapping my foot, rubbing my eyes, praying for the ending to come. Honestly, all my energy had been depleted by that time, and then I am struggling to function for a few days because it took so much out of me.

So, yes, I agree with your theory. I build up my energy reserves in isolation. Then I expend all my energy reserves on social interaction. I'm a skilled performer for a few hours, then I'm crippled. It doesn't make any sense to anyone but ourselves. I think it is probably best if we try to work out how much energy we have to spend...

I'm more...something depending on the hour, day...where venus falls in the sky :p
It's very stark contrast, but I wouldn't necessarily call them polar opposites.

yeah, this happens to me too!

i've heard that stress can play a part in it as well as environment among other things

i saw an article and tumblr post on it awhile back, but now i can't seem to find it.....

if i do, i'll try to remember to post a link to it on this discussion

Based on my own experience, diet makes a massive difference. I bet that eating certain foods increases/decreases symptoms.

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I'm also this way, but its more so stress than energy. The more stress I have, the harder time I have masking my symptoms.