Hello - it's been a while since I've posted something here. I actually stumbled across this site about 7 years ago when I felt that I potentially fit the bill for Aspergers. Now I have a 5 year old daughter who is currently diagnosed as PDD-NOS, is set to be re-evaluated next April for autism; her diag is fairly certain that if Asperger's was still a clinical term, that is what she would come out with. No surprise, considering her father's family is full of Asperger's - for sure all of the men in his family have it to some degree, and I think some of the women do as well. But that's not my question.
What I've discovered especially during my daughter's eval was that, when I was answering the questions about her behaviors, I actually had to stop and take a step back and remember that I am answering these questions about her, not about me. It made me wonder if my suspicions about myself were true. I've wondered this for a long time, but I've never actually done anything with it because I'm not even sure how to. I am currently diagnosed as bipolar, and after many many years of different medications I have finally found a combination that works for me. I do manage to pass as NT however it's because of years of being treated as "weird" or "odd" or even "creepy", I have just basically shut down and kept to myself. I don't do well in large crowds, or small crowds, or with people in general, I don't have very many friends other than my husband, who is really the only person that I feel most comfortable around (not my daughter's father - her dad and I are no longer together) however I write far better than I can speak; I have difficulty finding the words I want to say when I speak, I do have narrow intense interests, I prefer structure and any change in plans/routine can completely derail my entire day. The list goes on; many of the self destructive behaviors and repetitive behaviors I had to answer questions on for my daughter I found also applied to me.
Has anyone else ever discovered this "revelation" about themselves? And if so, how have others handled it? Also to note: my husband agrees that I am possibly undiagnosed Aspergers after going through the evaluation and what will eventually be diagnosis of my daughter. Thanks for listening!
22 May 2015, 8:47 am
