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Does it ever happen to you to get anxious or depressed because...you don't know what to do with time?
It happens to me since I remember. I hate it. Any time I finish to do something, e.g., when I finish the academic year, or when I just have a few free hours I don't know why but I get so anxious that I'm very likley to have a meltdown soon. Today I delivered most my final assignments for my master courses and I suddenly though ''Oh, no! Again! And now?''. I don't know what to do with time. Everyone seems to be superhappy to be on holidays, I hate it! It seems that I have no goals to accomplish all day long, and I honestly hate all those things that everyone likes. Movies, etc. I didn't develop any interest apart from my studies, topics related to autism, to the mind in general, etc. I think the most prominent feeling is....yeah, feeling lost. I take consciousness of my loneliness and impossibility to enjoy social life, etc.
It's not just pure sadness, it's something that sounds like ''And now?!''.
I apologize for the horrible way in which I presented the topic, but I didn't know how to express it better. And I really wanted to know if it happens to some of you guys as well.

Yeah...I know what you mean.

When I was a kid, about 12 years old, I used to have too much time on my hands. I would get so bored that I would shoplift.

There are times when I feel that I have "too much time on my hands." At other times, I don't have enough time at all. I don't tend to use my "down time" for productive purposes.

I feel like it's an ideal situation when one uses one's time for productive purposes, while thoroughly enjoying what they are doing.

Interestingly, I did not speak until I was age 5 1/2. A lack of speech during the 1960s was sometimes known as "aphasia." I was described as having "aphasia."

"Aphasia" carries a totally different meaning nowadays--meaning, exclusively, a disorder of speech production or comprehension caused by a precipitating event such as a stroke.

I think you expressed it very clearly, OP.

I always seem to be in one of two states:

1. Annoyed that I have too much to do and too little time to do it in, and longing for the freedom of that point of completion when it's all done.

2. Annoyed that I have nothing to do, and longing for some worthy task to come along and liberate me from the unbearable freedom of leisure.

I can't seem to just work at a comfortable pace, enjoying the task in hand.

Yeah...I know what you mean.

I suck verbally, too!

Anyway: Welcome to WrongPlanet!

Enjoy thyself!

Thank you!