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25 Jun 2015, 12:06 pm

Around this time... so oppressive... I lost my first love years ago at this point, and everyone seems to take a holiday at this time... kids decide to play with their balls, and I'm just rotting inside, just rotting...


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25 Jun 2015, 12:45 pm

Sorry about your loss I for one can't stand the summer months Hang in there.


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25 Jun 2015, 2:02 pm

Sorry, I think I've known that feeling, and it's a cripplingly dread inspiring place to be... Do hang on, the pain does appear to die down over time. As for relating to the feeling, I cannot forget good people, and I've never found anyone as admirable and powerfully lovely as I found my first love. People have tried to tell me time and again that I'll move on when I meet someone new, but I never found another woman's personality attractive enough to actually want to date prior to meeting her, and I was 24 when I met her. I found the best I've been able to do in moving on, is having sought and found a fair amount of acceptance in being single over the last few years. I'd not go as far to say that I'm happy being single, but I do find a fair amount of rest and ease in navigating such a solitary life to the point that I'd certainly not be comfortable giving up the freedom of the path for anyone less than my ideal.


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25 Jun 2015, 2:06 pm

Seasonal affective disorder?



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25 Jun 2015, 11:42 pm

Mootoo wrote:
Around this time... so oppressive... I lost my first love years ago at this point, and everyone seems to take a holiday at this time... kids decide to play with their balls, and I'm just rotting inside, just rotting...


Would you care to elaborate on having lost your first love?

I'll listen.

I am sry that happened to you. :(


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26 Jun 2015, 11:12 pm

ToughDiamond wrote:
Seasonal affective disorder?
That happens in winter & it's summertime now.


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26 Jun 2015, 11:19 pm

nick007 wrote:
ToughDiamond wrote:
Seasonal affective disorder?
That happens in winter & it's summertime now.

It also happens in summer if you believe Wikipedia:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seasonal_ ... e_disorder



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27 Jun 2015, 2:27 am

I have a different sort of reaction, but in a way similar. I see the kids playing and wish that I had friends who could play so spontaneously/innocently/curiously. I wonder when I will ever have the kind of romance that middle schoolers have, along with the friendship that two kids playing together on the playground have (I want a relationship that includes both of these things at the same time).

Like the other day I was at a park where I used to go as a kid, and I wanted to swing on the swings, but there were already kids there. While I was in a good mood before, I quickly descended toward depression. Because firstly, I didn't want to take the swings away from the kids, yet I wanted to swing. Also, even if I had been able to, I realized I wouldn't have anyone to swing with me (particularly a girl). And even if I did, there's a decent chance that the other person would be doing that just to please me, not because she has the same excitement toward things like swinging on swings that I do.



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27 Jun 2015, 6:10 am

Lace-Bane wrote:
Sorry, I think I've known that feeling, and it's a cripplingly dread inspiring place to be... Do hang on, the pain does appear to die down over time. As for relating to the feeling, I cannot forget good people, and I've never found anyone as admirable and powerfully lovely as I found my first love. People have tried to tell me time and again that I'll move on when I meet someone new, but I never found another woman's personality attractive enough to actually want to date prior to meeting her, and I was 24 when I met her. I found the best I've been able to do in moving on, is having sought and found a fair amount of acceptance in being single over the last few years. I'd not go as far to say that I'm happy being single, but I do find a fair amount of rest and ease in navigating such a solitary life to the point that I'd certainly not be comfortable giving up the freedom of the path for anyone less than my ideal.


I also can't get over my first love. I keep telling myself I let the good one get away or rather I ruined it with one of the good guys. There seems to be less and less good guys out there. I'm become comfortable with single too. I think I'm much better without being in a relationship. I'm not much of a people person these days.

Just had a falling out with a best friend too. Now I just feel like I'm alone in the world but I'm embracing it. I just feel like it's a lot of effort to even have friends.


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