What do you guys think I have?

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So I'm kinda confused as to if I have Non Verbal Learning Disabilities and/or aspergers/hfa or not. I haven't done any official testing (but have been professionally diagnosed with ocd) and probably won't be able to get in for a month or two, but I have always felt like a alien trying to adapt to a different species. So I'm just gonna type about my behaviors and stuff and you guys tell me what you think.
While I don't remember/know much from being a young child I apparently talked to my parents/family alot, but when i started preschool I barely talked at all, so much so the teacher actually had me do pre school twice. I have hand flapped when I get excited since I was a kid and still do now at 15 years old. I also find myself rubbing the keys on my keyboard when I feel excited. As I got into my teen years I began to realize something was off. In class I always had a hard time with math, especially geometry. But often I struggled in other classes with science probably being the 2nd hardest for me. I had a hard time understand or processing the bigger concepts and ideas. Information tends to go through one ear and out the other, usually not because I wasn't paying attention, but I just can't understand the details fast enough. I struggle with handwriting and drawing/ coloring. Social Studies is probably my best non reading class (until we start using maps or do geography) because usually all you have to do is memorize information, and not understand a huge concept or idea. I couldn't see/understand things that everyone else in the class got so easily. I also struggle with motor skills. I didn't learn how to tie my shoes or ride a bike until late. I have a ridiculously hard time with tying things, sports, etc and often come across as lazy or rude when I really just don't understand how to do it. When the teacher puts a new seating chart on the board I can't figure out were to sit because I can't transfer the chart to actual reality if that makes sense. Despite all of that I am a extremely fast reader. I even won a contest for reading the most words in 3rd grade. But even so recalling information from the stories is sometimes hard but I definitely get through it.
So that is a general explanation of my academic problems now lets talk about the socialization. Making friends has always been a challenge for me and I am only recently starting to understand why. First I definelty have social anxiety, I worry about little things I said hoping I didn't accidentally offend or upset someone. I am also just generally afraid of being judged. I have a hard time coming up with things to talk about. I prefer to be around more than one friend because that way they can come up with topics and I can just join in. I typically don't like talking about myself or things I enjoy, like when I go to the movies and someone asks about the movie I get anxiety and don't really know why. Despite that I often really want to talk about something I'm into or doing but am afraid to. But I am not always shy though. Once I get comfortable I can be loud and annoying. Some classes I am considered the class clown and others I am the quiet shy kid. After conversations I have with people I often think of all the things I could have said. Often I talk to myself pretending I am in a certain social situation. Sometimes I don't get sarcasm or take things literally but I can be very funny and joke around with people. I generally can recognize when someone is mad or sad, but often I have a hard time understanding why there feeling what there feeling and don't feel empathy. Thats not to say I'm never empathetic. If I can relate or for whatever reason it may be I can feel very sad for people. My honesty often makes people mad or offends/annoys them though that is rarely the intention. I often have a hard time controlling my emotions like I'll cry over something small or when aggravated push someone. I sometimes struggle to know the socially appropriate response, like if someone asks me if they think something is good or bad it can be hard for me to verbalize how I feel, good or bad. I feel like I don't just naturally know how to respond to others feelings and comments,etc like my social responses are things I have learned from observing people and not just naturally learned like others. Sometimes I'm right sometimes I'm not like if a person laughs or smiles even a little I might start uncertainly laughing. When I put my hands in my pockets I immediately wonder if its awkward to do that or not or if I sometimes won't know what I'm supposed to do with my hands. Eye contact makes me very uncomfortable. Often I don't know if I'm supposed to just stare at them or look around a little. I am generally considered awkward. I really only have 3 friends I talk too after school. I spend most of my time alone in my room. Isolation is a problem for me. It makes me comfortable as I often find social situations draining and they make me uncomfortable. If there's something I want to know more about I can obsessively research it for hours like I have been doing with aspergers and nvld. A weird interest I have is album sales. Ill often continuously look at rap album Wikipedia pages looking at the sales (I also look at album information like reviews and concepts on Wikipedia but sales are one little thing I have always found interesting.) I will also watch interviews and various videos with/about various artists. I also watch videos about news and gaming news (though gaming has been boring me a little lately). I love hip hop. When I listen to it I flap my hands and sometimes get my xbox controller and mash the buttons with it in my right hand. I do this when I am excited never when I am nervous. I am over sensitive to lights, noise and being touched. Sometimes when things are loud or there is multiple noises that are loud I will feel weird when everyone else is fine. Also when I am going to bed the low light on my alarm clock or any other tiny lights makes it impossible for me to sleep without covering my face. When people touch me I get jumpy, like I feel like I'm being tickled even if they just put there hand on my leg or something.
I also suspect I might have mild to moderate adhd as I often will get a idea in my mind and forget it quickly and a recurring problem for me is walking into a room to do something and forget what I came in there to do. I also can quickly get bored of videos or games and stuff like that if I'm not super interested. Also in class paying attention to a lesson can be difficult.
I have been to a psychiatrist for anxiety and depression. My depression is better but the anxiety is only mildly better.
So I start googling about aspergers and nvld and I'm 99.9% sure I have nvld. But apparently stimming is not a sign of nvld and many people have aspergers and nvld so I began to think I fit the criteria for both of them. But I am not sure if my social problems are severe enough to be considered for aspergers/hfa.
So what do you guys think? All opinions are welcome.

What do you guys think I have?


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It's really hard to say.

You might have some Asperger's/Autistic traits. But it's not severe, by any means.

A person would have to observe you more in "real life" in order to really get a determination. You should probably get professionally assessed, if you are able to.

Do you have trouble keeping employment?

Oh...sorry about that. I thought you were older.

I don't think what you have is really serious. Some of this stuff happens with many teenagers. Do you have at least some friends?

I didn't say all....I said some.

That other stuff you mentioned is indicative of Asperger's/Autism/NVLD.

You're right. You should get assessed by an professional.

One of the great advantages/benefits of self-diagnosis is you can have/be anything you want

What would you like to be?

RE: Self-diagnosis...
I detect at least a combination of Aspie and ADHD issues in your descriptions, however as you stated you've done online research, have you tried taking any online tests? Results from such could help you decide what type of professional intervention you might want to seek.

Brandon, you´re only fifteen and still developing. I´d say, that it is fairly important for you to know, how you function, so you´ll have an idea on how to go about things according to your mind type, needs etc. in the future.
Ask for a referrel, and meantime, do your own research, while you wait.
The tests can give you a hint, like Rockymtnchris says.
All of them can be googled by name: RAADS-R, AQ, EQ, BAP and the "Aspietest", which is not diagnostic, - none of them are, but they can give a hint.
Do them all three times over two months and take the average. It´ll give a more reliable hint, than doing them once.
Read Tony Attwood: "A complete guide to Aspergers Syndrome" and see, if you recognize, or you can listen to him on Youtube. (Just google Tony Attwood and videos will come up).

Most important: Write down as much as you can remember about childhood.
Ask your parents about your baby-milestones: When you could support your own head, when you started crawling, speaking. Any habits, anxieties, social difficulties/oddities, that you don´t remember yourself?
Any very early developments?
Bring your initial post from this thread and your research. See, what the doc says.