There are times I'd feel like I am really a part of the social group and get to interact with them. But when words come out my mouth they give me different sort of reactions because I speak in a very soft and low volume voice I can hardly notice. They also comment on how I move very gingerly and awkwardly some would even laugh at. They'd say I don't know how to follow instructions and have a poor performance skills. I'd really like to believe I am, and to be normal but no matter what it all turns out that I'm person not worthy of. Unless I am with my few weird friends who have Bipolar, Avoidant Personality, ADHD, ADD and a suspected aspie I'd feel as though I'm with the cool kids. The world isn't crushing on me anymore, every time that a certain person would make me feel like I belong and I'm not alone.
Being with my friends whom I have similarities feels differently than when I'm with other sorts of personalities. It's as though in every person, in every faction I have to deal in with their own perspectives in order to gain connection from them .
03 Aug 2015, 3:06 am
