Depression and autism?

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So I have been really low these last few days. Had 1 serious suicidal attempt that result to A&E! But it's not a planned thing I get so anxious and then suddenly I pop and that's it I go into this rage! It happened in school and I smashed a window and used the glass to cut my arm. At a&e they put glue and stitches on it and I was fine.. 1 hour later I was fine. I just go into this usually self directed rage where I can't stop. Don't get me wrong I hit out if anyone comes near me but it's mainly directed inwards. I really can't help it I am out of control i feel as though no one understands.
I'm having these ,mood swings all the time and they are worse than ever at the moment. I have never been this low. Currently I am coping ok but doesn't say that tomorrow I will feel the same.

Does anyone have any ideas on what could be causing this rage. I do have a diagnoses of autism,ADHD,OCD,PDA and anxiety problems. But none of them explain this kind of mood, I could be wrong.

Thanks for reading

It may be an accumulation of feelings that have built up over all your life to date, which you have been forced to submerge and repress.

Don't automatically assume that it is a mental illness - "depression" - and nothing else. Explore other concepts too. There are learning opportunities for you here, and it sad to me that people drug these opportunities into non-existence with mind-numbing drugs like Prozac.

The word 'depression' literally means something that is forced downward. It is an interesting word; applied to young people on the spectrum - what are the elements of life in our cultures that would have the effect of weighing upon them, with such pressure, as to force them downwards?

One of the gateways toward greater maturity is to explore our stored up rage and anger, where it has come from, how it has influenced us, how we have been shamed for anger in the past, and to understand that anger in itself is not a bad thing for us to experience. It is how we express that anger that can be productive or harmful.

It is easy to stick many labels on ourselves, rather like postage stamps, to explain our reality as we perceive it to be. It is harder to explore how we came to be who we are at any moment. It is a choice and people make one or the other - the two choices are mutually exclusive.

Perhaps you grew up in a family where any negative feeling was considered unacceptable - no-one had permission to be angry or sad. Or there was emotional abuse that was just ignored or regarded as normal behaviour. Or (fill in your experience). No-one gets out of childhood without having experienced some form of suffering. Extreme feelings manifesting in a storm, like rage, are a sign that those buried feelings are demanding your attention and exploration. Psychotherapists (not psychiatrists) can be an immense help in untangling the threads of the past and their present impacts.