I feel so alone and hopeless.. :(

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everything I do or try to do just ends up a disaster. i've f****d up a dozen friendships, most recently the one with my former best friend and I can't stop thinking about him cos we were so close and I ruined it. i'm literally all alone now and I can't talk to my other only friend left since he just ignores my messages whenever I try to talk to him about things that are bothering me. I feel like a horrible person and a walking disaster cursed with all this bad luck, i can't stop thinking about suicide because everyone apart from my family hates me and my family are the only reason why i'm still living because I hate to imagine how i'd mess up their lives by offing myself. i dunno what to do with my life anymore. I'm 16 and I feel so empty, alone and fed up..

It's the typical aspie experience. There's nothing you can do about it.

As Cockroach96 said, it's a typical Aspie problem and theres nothing you can really do about it but feel free to PM me if you want someone to talk to.

Hello Pyromatic,

I think you should post in the Haven section, you should receive more constructive replies than the one posted above.

Hi Pyromatic,

I know how hard it is to feel the way that you are feeling because I have been there.

Please hold on to hope - you are irreplaceable to your family.

A lot of us on the spectrum have a very hard time making & keeping friends, I know that I do. I also know that a heartfelt apology and an iron-willed commitment to doing my best to stay connected to the friends that I really value has rescued my relationship with my best friend from some of the most embarrassing and unhappy incidents that I have ever had.

Reaching out for help when I have needed it is so hard, I admire your bravery in helping yourself by talking about it. It took some time and hard work, but I am having a lot more good days than bad days now and I really want to be here again. Life can be a crazy, beautiful, amazing adventure once you get through the hardest moments.

I agree with Neilson_Wheels, the Haven section is a good place to have discussions with people who are willing to give suggestions about how you can keep moving forward when life is really hard. The Members Only board is very good for this too.

If you are uncomfortable having deep conversations in a forum, there are some places that you might consider going to chat indepth (anonymous & free) with volunteers who are trained to support people in all sorts of crisis. Sometimes just chating anonymously can make a big difference to how I feel and to my perspective on Life. I found this so much easier than therapy because it is anonymous and there whenever I need it, so there is no real pressure to open up or even keep chatting when you feel ready to be finished.

http://www.7cupsoftea.com

https://www.imalive.org

If you are in the US you can also call Lifeline which is the national suicide prevention helpline at 1–800–273–8255


I hope that you treat yourself gently and that you embrace life as much as you can while you are feeling bad. You deserve a good life full of friends who really value you for who you are...and that is worth waiting & working for.