sometimes i cant stand to be so hyper sensetive..its like i pick up on everyones emotional baggage...maybe thats why im such a recluse most of the time.. I guess thats also why i want to be a psychologist. thats about the only thing i have been able to do lately...i get overloaded sometimes and i want to just cry out loudly...Please!!!Please!!!understand me...even when i cant make out two thoughts from the rest. I hate days like these, although sadly enough they are the ones which i write and draw the best...i use to dream about the day i would mentally breakdown and be taken away, just so that i could say there was nothing else to worry about anymore because everyone would know i was crazy...i get these minute seizures or spasams or something sometimes when im overwhelmed....does anyone ever get those as well...anyway
i just watched Mozart and the Whale and i started stimming for some reason..i just felt anxious and weird to see regular people acting like Aspies while i have been trying so long to fit NT...i feel like getting in my car and not turning back right now...i guess i just want some peace in my head for a few moments....
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16 Apr 2007, 11:22 pm
