How do you react when you feel someone is trying to control

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How do you react when you feel that people are trying to control you ?
Has that feeling changed between being a child and becoming a teenager then becoming an adult ?

I feel tension and anxiety.

As a child I would just ignore their orders and demands and just keep doing what I am doing. Today I still try and do that. I never acted that way towards adults though who were in charge like teachers and parents, only to other kids and babysitters because I saw them as big kids, not adults. I also remember acting defiant towards strangers at a place when I was watching the elevators go up and down and these adults sitting at the tables were yelling at me and being all mean and I just ignored them and then my dad was trying to get me to come to him and he didn't even yell at the adults for harassing me but I eventually listened to my father because he demanded I come to him. I think now those adults probably didn't like the sight of children so they were offended seeing one even though I wasn't even running or making noise, I was just watching the elevators. So even then I felt resistant to unauthority figures and then my ex boyfriend was trying to control me and I also resisted so his tantrums didn't work. But instead I felt bad and depressed and I felt he was way too needy and he wanted me around 24/7 but he was truly controlling.

I always had a flight response.When I was a teen my mum locked me in the house on the second floor because I had been running away and staying out for days on end. I was 13. So I locked myself in the bathroom and tried to jump from the window to the drain pipe3 feet away. ( I had never climbed one before ) I barely grabbed it and slid a little then fell the rest, managing to knock myself out.
When I woke I was fine, no broken bones or sprains even. I did however feel like on Tom and Jerry when something is dropped on him and he looks like an accordion. Inside it ached for weeks.
I did not like the fact that she was controlling the situation.
I would like to say I had wonderful parents who were 100% consistent and not hypocritical in any way. They just had an out of control daughter, who they had no idea how to help. And I couldn't explain

I have real problems with it. Just two days ago I had an argument with my mother. I feel like she wants to control my life from afar by trying to tell me what I need to do, and if she feels like I'm being lazy she starts to get angry at me. The thing is, she usually is right with her points. I AM too lazy and fail to do things I know I should do. But the way she tries to push it on me, I just can't take. I am an adult and if I tell her I don't want this, I feel like it should be her responsibility to shut up, yet she keeps coming back to those points.

So last time I really yelled at her and she said she just wants my best and she was close to crying sometimes. I felt bad afterwards but I just really really hate people trying to push me into some direction, or criticising the way I live life.