Erratic thoughts?

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I am female and have recently been diagnosed with Aspergers. My actions and thoughts can be very erratic, especially when I am excited about something. It is like popcorn and I find it hard to focus on one thing (once I do, I go into "hyperfocus" mode and block out other things that I should be doing). Neither situation is conducive to productivity. Does anyone else out there experience the same thing? Any advice?

Yes. Like right now I'm awaiting my results from my evaluation, and I can concentrate on everything EXCEPT what I need to do most. Very un-productive.

I have a version of this. I have an active mind which is on-the-go non-stop. And yet it has never been a 'tool' I can focus properly and deploy to a purpose. It just 'does stuff'. I've always had and wanted/needed work that did not need me to really invest myself in it, in order that I can sort of let my process run. I'm sure I can improve that, and these days I try to bring presence and mindfulness to bear, to calm down the chatter.

There is very little that interests me/my mind that has practical application in the world of work, and I can't help that. There have been times when I've just had to lie down on the floor in my room and let it all work itself out.

Two things that I find helpful these days are writing things down, and exercise.
Writing does two things: it produces different, more reflective results by slowing the whole process down, and it makes the content more real, concrete.
Exercise just puts me in a different state, and sometimes I really reach a place where I can just 'be', at least for a while.

Because of OCD, my thought patterns are similar. It's distracting, and makes it hard to get things done.

I've been pinging around, completely unable to do anything unless it absolutely has to be done. I bounce from thing to thing and cannot alight on anything.

I'm so unfocused that I cannot do my zoning out thing and it's been very distressful.

Edit:
I'm doing research and finding things all over the place. But I just read this. And it's been a very strong thought for me, but as always, I have to find it somewhere else to have a reference:

"I am always liable to assume the worst in any given situation because, in my mind, if something is not the best outcome it can be, it is automatically the worst outcome."

Full blog post:
https://spectrumeye.wordpress.com/2014/ ... -thinking/

I think this is also what is keeping me unfocused. I can't find any solution at this time because I don't know the full parameters to work with. So, I just ping from thing to thing.

At school I either hyper focus on a assignment or don't get it done, and not hyperfocus.. When I'm hyperfocusing I tend to stim more, and be more autistic like.

My thoughts have always been erratic. I will be thinking of one thing, only for something else to come in and push that thought away. It can happen as much as once every few minutes.

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Ya, I'm weird like that...

Yes, I tend to have "dendritic thoughts" as they are sometimes called. It's an important element of creativity (if you can control it).

There's a famous Keats poem that begins, "When I have fears that I may cease to be / Before my pen has glean'd my teeming brain..."

Teeming brain, aye.