An apology

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03 May 2005, 12:27 pm

listen, everyone. I'm sorry I flipped out on you people. I have been in... denial about my condition. My parents (even my mother, an autistic) realized their daughter was an aspie, but told me that was MY problem, that nobody had to make any allowances for me. Even If my IEP in high school allowed me to turn in assignments late, they wouldnt let me. Things even progressed to outright abuse. Sure, I have all the appearances of normality, but at a terrible cost. I got so utterly depressed before I was medicated. I even tried to kill myself with a shotgun.
I hope you can forgive me. I have finally found a place where I belong.

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03 May 2005, 12:29 pm

Come to my arms brother.

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03 May 2005, 12:30 pm

Malcolm_Scipo wrote:

Come to my arms brother.

WHY DO YOU PERSIST IN THINKING I AM A MALE!?! !?!?! !?

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03 May 2005, 12:34 pm

Because I am scared and forgetful. :oops: :oops: :oops: :oops:

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03 May 2005, 12:37 pm

TeelaClarke wrote:

Malcolm_Scipo wrote:

Come to my arms brother.

WHY DO YOU PERSIST IN THINKING I AM A MALE!?! !?!?! !?

HEY MAN, CALM DOWN!

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03 May 2005, 12:38 pm

Your profile DOES say you're male...

TeelaClarke
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03 May 2005, 12:38 pm

sorry, sorry. Didn't really "flip out" or get angry, aspies dont get angry that easily. just tryin' get the point across, a'ight?

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03 May 2005, 12:39 pm

ghotistix wrote:

Your profile DOES say you're male...

holy hell, I forgot about that. I'ma go correct that now.

EDIT: that better?

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03 May 2005, 12:42 pm

TeelaClarke wrote:

I have finally found a place where I belong.

And you arrived in unforgettable style! :-)

Don't worry about it.

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03 May 2005, 1:18 pm

TeelaClarke wrote:

My parents (even my mother, an autistic) realized their daughter was an aspie, but told me that was MY problem, that nobody had to make any allowances for me. Even If my IEP in high school allowed me to turn in assignments late, they wouldnt let me. Things even progressed to outright abuse. Sure, I have all the appearances of normality, but at a terrible cost.

Been there. I think a lot of us have. There's a reason I haven't told my parents about it. Even now that I've been diagnosed, it's highly likely they wouldn't believe it or take it seriously.

You're forgiven, no questions asked. I'm just impressed that you came back and apologized.

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03 May 2005, 1:42 pm

pyraxis wrote:

There's a reason I haven't told my parents about it. Even now that I've been diagnosed, it's highly likely they wouldn't believe it or take it seriously.

I'm lucky. My experience was the exact opposite. When I self-diagnosed AS I expected a lot of denial. When I told my boyfriend he picked right up on it and agreed with me, and then my mother went a step further and realized/admitted that she has quite a few AS traits herself.

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03 May 2005, 4:30 pm

TeelaClarke wrote:

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listen, everyone. I'm sorry I flipped out
on you people. I have been in... denial
about my condition. My parents (even
my mother, an autistic) realized their
daughter was an aspie, but told me that
was MY problem, that nobody had to make
any allowances for me. Even If my IEP
in high school allowed me to turn in assignments
late, they wouldnt let me. Things even progressed
to outright abuse. Sure, I have all the appearances
of normality, but at a terrible cost. I got so utterly
depressed before I was medicated. I even tried to
kill myself with a shotgun. I hope you can forgive
me. I have finally found a place where I belong.

Your appology is accepted and a COMPLIMENT GIVEN!
It usually takes a couple of weeks to 300+ views.
On the rare occasion, days depending on the
subject and content(usually controversal), BUT it
took one day to rally up most of the regulars 50+
and get a 500+ viewing and 30+ posting. That is
definely a record.

Good luck on wrong planet,

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter

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03 May 2005, 7:29 pm

Uh.. no offense or anything, but why should you get special permissions at school? I was treated like an NT in everyway possible and did very, very well.

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03 May 2005, 7:30 pm

Teela, WELCOME

I must compliment you on your stick-with-it-ness. I was not expecting you to come back. Good example by the way of the tantrums (of the adult level of course) that each of us have, hehe. Plus, stress can just make any kind of temper (even the most even-tempered person) say things they do not mean or would not normally say.

Glad to have you here and look forward to your future posts

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03 May 2005, 7:49 pm

I didn't read your initial thread, Teela, but I totally get the denial thing. I mean, I never denied it for myself, it made to much sense. My mum did. She can't accept that I'm "different", even when the dog picks up on it.

A lot of people have trouble accepting various things. Learn to embrace yourself for who you are, not what disorders you have. It's easier to live. Just remember, you got given the gift of AS, in a way. You probably have one special talent no one will ever beat you at, whether it's remember ing the layout of the grocery store or knowing everything about a computer or whatever.

Give yourself a hug for me!

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03 May 2005, 7:52 pm

My mother always knew I was different. She's just glad to have a name for it now.

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