I am having difficulty working out my emotions.
I procrastinate because I would rather do something other than the task I need to complete. In other words, attempting a task involves exerting effort and while I may enjoy doing the task, I prefer to do more rewarding activities. e.g. I may enjoy studying, but if I enjoy eating ice-cream more then I'll go eat ice-cream until a time comes when the studying cannot be postponed any further (i.e. procrastinating).
What's confusing me is that I feel the exact same thing with social interaction. Yet people tell me that's social anxiety? I don't experience the physical symptoms of stress or anxiety, I don't feel uncomfortable socializing, or feel like everyone is looking at me. I'm fairly sure it's not social anxiety. The feeling is the exact same when I procrastinate; the degree doesn't really change. It's simply a task that requires energy, so obviously I prefer to do more rewarding activities first.
I don't understand. Why do people tell me that's social anxiety? It's easy to interact with people, but there are more rewarding activities which I would prefer to engage in. That's how it's always been for me.
Would someone elaborate on the difference please? I'm so tired of all this. I feel like I'm going crazy.
30 May 2016, 2:16 am
