severe constant "intense World" feeligs. what should I do?

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31 May 2016, 1:44 pm

I have this problem of "intense world". Everything is super important, vibrant, massive. The contrast of everything, visual or otherwise is "0ver 9000". Also from the inside, all and each of my thoughts and feelings seem to have super extreme priority. Like minor things are instantly super important. I can't think of everything that doesn't affect me or affects me just a little. Everything affects me, The good and the bad and the trivial.
This is not about rumination or OCD or everything. I stop thinking about issues quickly, but other issues arise/happen.
There is a little bit of good in it too because I experience the world in an intense and interesting way but it's also killing me.
I have never taken street drugs, but I suppose people on ecstasy or speed and such feel this way. Not bad, but I don't want to have it ALL THE TIME. Not even the drug heads would take ecstasy 3x daily forever.
I want this to stop. Antipsychotics don't work long term. Have had mood stabilizers, don't work either. Antidepressants make it worse. Meditation and relaxation techniques also don't work.
How can I make this stop?


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31 May 2016, 2:17 pm

I get this a lot too. Everything being very intense very quickly. I get very angry, very upset, very anxious, very irritable. I've also gotten very happy, very quickly, but these times got less and less frequent. Since I have major sensory issues, getting irritable, angry, or upset happens a LOT.

My psychiatrist concluded that I have bipolar type II, and put me on lithium carbonate. I'm still not wholly convinced that this is the correct diagnosis, but lithium works very well on my irritability, anxiety, and mood swings. So maybe she is right. You may need to try different mood stabilizers before you get the right one. I tried Abilify first, and all it did was make me throw up a lot. The lithium doesn't make me dopey or decrease the good part of my focus, since I take it before bed. If you are bipolar (and I'm not saying you are), you'll need a mood stabilizer if you are taking antidepressants, since antidepressants alone can make manic episodes more likely.

Getting enough sleep is essential for me--anything that throws my physical well being will destabilize my moods. Exercise helps (walking or swimming for me) to get restless energy out and trigger endorphins.

I've tried meditation. The only kind that works for me is to use a visual focus to occupy my mind (like gazing at a candle, complex pattern, or mandala). Otherwise, my busy busy mind wanders and starts thinking about work, my special interest, housework, etc.

I've also tried alcohol, pot, and morphine. Trust me, they REALLY make things worse (especially depression and meltdowns). Even one bottle of cider can make me anxious and depressed.


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01 Jun 2016, 2:12 am

I get episodes like this, but meditation usually weakens the effect to a managable level (or induces it, should i so desire)
Without meditations, i do not know what would still work...



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01 Jun 2016, 5:35 am

omid wrote:
Not even the drug heads would take ecstasy 3x daily forever.


I wish... :roll:



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01 Jun 2016, 10:07 am

Have you tried just going outside and running down the street when it happens? Immediately, without thinking, oh I'll look stupid or I don't have running clothes on. Even if it's raining. Just immediately go outside and run as fast as you can. When you can run anymore, period, turn around and walk back.



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01 Jun 2016, 2:39 pm

Yes, I know what you mean. I at least have breaks between those episodes.

Sometimes repetitive tasks help, even knitting:-)



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01 Jun 2016, 4:22 pm

GodzillaWoman wrote:
I've also tried alcohol, pot, and morphine. Trust me, they REALLY make things worse (especially depression and meltdowns). Even one bottle of cider can make me anxious and depressed.

I'm just the opposite. Weed is totally my go to for this feeling. I smoke up and dive into a special interest. It nearly always takes care of things. Going outside in bright sun or hot weather just makes it worse. Of course, I'm not necessarily prescribing my methods, just saying that it's worth considering what is legal or decriminalized in your location.


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