Tired, so I skimmed it. Well-written and is seems others in this thread really relate to it. I'm afraid I can't. I've always felt I'm on the same "operating system" as others, but mine is corrupted. That's a simple analogy, but it works.
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Yes, I have autism. No, it isn't "part of me". Yes, I hate my autism. No, I don't hate myself.