Should I give up on life?

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I posted this topic in the haven but nobody responsed! I hope i get some help here

Let me summarize my life line by line.

I'm 18 years old male.
I live in Istanbul Turkey.
I have aspergers.
I have 0 friends at the moment.
I finished high school last year.
I am studying at home a bit.
I use 3 kind of pills called prozac, concerta and abilify.
My parents want me to study and go to university.
My parents sent me to more than 5 mental doctors.
First one said I have aspergers.
He said I can be professor if I study hard.
He tested my IQ, he said I have 141 IQ.
I was motivated because I could be a successful person if I study hard.
I want to do a computer programming job.
I'm interested in that since I was 11 or 12.
But I usually lose motivation because I dont even have a friend to talk.
I wanted to commit suicide sometimes.
Some of other doctors said I have social anxiety.
Some of them said I'm just too shy but not asperger.
I believe I have aspergers and social anxiety.
In middle school a lot of other students were teasing me.
In high school the people were more mature.
I had some short term friends.
And I met some girlfriends, bc I look handsome.
But I'm too fat! 210 pounds (95 kg).
I was too thin before, but when I was 13/14 years old...
I didn't go to school for 1 year, because I was being bullied.
In that timeframe I rarely moved my fatass.
I ate too much fast food.
I was usually in front of my computer playing games.
I don't look like obese, but I want to lose weight.
I went to gym but I felt nervous because there were other people in gym.
Now I go for a walk in mornings in seaside.
And I study, watch tv, sometimes go outside, play video games.
I also worry about my future.
If I cant go to university I will be jobless.
My social life sucks.

I don't know what I should do. Can u help me?

Hi Awkward,

It sounds like you're having a tough time but don't give up on life. I have high functioning autism and and high IQ. I have worked in the IT industry very successfully and I can see no reason why you couldn't do that. I didn't find my autism to be a barrier to university either - in fact it kind of helped me because I was studying something I was very interested in.
In terms of social things and friends, it sounds like although you're not where you would like to be yet, you are definitely making some progress. You went from being teased to having some short-term friends - that's a big improvement. A really good thing to do, if you can, is to keep an eye out for someone who shares the same or similar interests as you. When you have an interst in common friendship becomes much easier.

Keep on trying, I know it can be hard sometimes - it was for me too. It does get better.
All the best,
Jo

Awkward, you sound like so many people on this site. Don't give up. It's very difficult. I know it is. And I too feel like giving up all the time. Sometimes I feel very justified in wanting to give up. I think we have pretty much all felt that way. But you can't. Even when things get absolutely unbearable, and they do, you just have to find a way to keep going. You are so young. You don't know what will come to you in the future if you just hang on. God will look after you and He never gives you more than you can bear. I believe that. Even if you don't share my spiritual beliefs about God, know that there is a greater force that you are a part of and it has not abandoned you. Please do spend time here. We will support you. You are among friends here who have similar experiences. And I know that some of the friends I have here, I feel as close to as some of my loved ones in real life because even though it's internet, we are still real people so you can build real friendships here.

Hang in there my friend. Don't give up.

Skibum

I'm 73 and for 90% of my life I was socially awkward and did not understand why. I did, however, find people who could accepted me for who I was and I have loved and been loved and am married with a wonderful woman. My daughter is still my joy in life. You might not fit into a social circle or find friends easily but you can have relationships and love.
It was only in the last decade that I understood what Asperger's was and realized how I made choices not understanding my liabilities in the social arena. There is an endless number of jobs where social interaction is not an important part of the requirements. Computers, law, science, music etc., all reward people with an IQ like yours. Avoid those jobs which depend on your interaction with others. Try to find others who share the same interests as you. That worked for me.

I don't know everything about your life, but I know one thing, your 18, you got many years of life ahead of you.

I am 28, and find life challenging, I have been through struggles that sound familiar. I know one thing though, if I give up, that is it, I will never get to see what could happen.

It was 23 I had my first relationship, I also have an interest in computer programming and I am only now starting to get to where I want to be. Life isn't easy, but you should not give up on it.

Just for goodness sake don't do anything stupid. One other thing, when trying to get on with people the most important thing is try to appreciate how others feel. Socialising is not easy, but you should find you learn more with time. I also would consider working somewhere that isn't just to do with programming, but where you will meet new people from different backgrounds. Sometimes the world of work can be easier socially, but try not to stand out, people judge a lot from the way you conduct yourself and appearances. I could go on.

It is not a matter of just studying hard but studying smart and persuing something that employers want and that you are skilled at and interests you. Figuring that out that takes time and experience and painfully making and learning from mistakes. Learning from mistakes also happens with social skills also.

When your self confidence improves and you have a better sense of what you are pursuing, your other issues such as relationships/sex will improve. Not saying it will be perfect, but it won't be the nightmare it is now.

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