I found out last year that there is a significant gap between my verbal IQ (131) and my performance IQ (103). This was a surprising result and the neuropsychologist could not explain it. Recently I was diagnosed with Asperger's by another therapist, so that's probably related. My score was also considerably lower than it had been in the past (145+).
What I don't understand is why I was able to do well academically in school, and excell in college, only to crash and burn hard later. I graduated with a BSc magna cum laude after only two years and eight months with a four-year degree, even though I went to college in the USA and not in my home contry of the Netherlands. Which means I had to overcome tremendous challenges and changes, like living with a foreign language, in a foreign culture, separated by thousands of miles from home, and moving out of my parents' home and living on my own all at once. While I was academically very succesful, my time in college was absolutely horrific, and it was certainly the worst period of my life. Socially I did not fit in at all, I was extremely lonely, very depressed and generally miserable. I then returned home and managed to graduate with an MBA from an internationally oriented business school in the Netherlands and the University of Chicago. After a few years of working at a few different jobs, I had a burnout and I haven't been able to work since. It's like all of my knowledge, capacity for learning new things and other skills just disappeared.
Is there such a thing as a "permanent autistic burnout" that you can't really fully recover from? I've been searching on the internet and haven't yet found anything substantial...
Thanks!