~ to me , i this last days .
I DID manage to get my SSDI-accessing card , and activate it
- But , remember , it was after ALL THESE WEEKS ! of grief-
Oh , and I lost a Draft #1 of this post entirely , with my EXTREMELY LIMITED ! computer time !- 
Okay , I got the SS-accessing card , and , with the roughly 1.40 month worth of money's which piled up , I have quite a bit at my disposal just now ~ BUT , admittedly , I might just piss it off pretty quickly , if I do not make myself do " something major " .
And (even leaving the CCSF ? out of this for now) , I have run into things making me think " maybe San Francisco isn't for me anymore " , and I should go somewhere else while I have the bus fare - tooo arrive maybe a little bit before it's really " almost Christmas " , say a week in nadvance -
For one thing - While I was enjoying/packaging some immediate post-getting thecard shopping from Walgreens' this afternoon - I WAS BLATANTLY PICKPOCKETED/MUGGED
! In broad daylight on Market Street
!
Maybe " the pack IS turning against me "~? 
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.

My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!