martial arts have become one of my strongest passions to ever have come across. they do require challenging the senses, as the touch and close proximity of a partner is required for most, and depending on the dojo environment they may be rather social places, so there is good tempering there for making improvement to endurance and tolerance of such difficult things. though, it does seem true, during form, my focus pours entirely into the discipline... and even during long form and surrounded by students and teachers for evaluation, it's as if nothing in the world exists but the flow of that form. the other noticeable benefit has been a drastic increase of controlled movements(no longer feel particularly troubled in conscience about striking arts being too ruthless in application for self defense with such found control), improvement of hand eye coordination and gauging distance. so it has occurred to me, learning, and then learning to teach such a physical discipline through example, may very well be a somewhat therapeutic way to the self sufficiency that almost everyone close in my life has told me, and continues to tell me, such self sufficiency isn't possible with my problems.
recently quit a karate-like art though, despite seeing it viable to learn and make applicable to defense with my frame. my interest has largely become invested in deciding upon which and learning an art or two(to study more than two would be hard to keep teachings pure/separate and in constant meaningful practice without fusing the styles into one) that don't require a young form, a certain build, or a specific level of fitness for useful application, so that they can be taught to the people who are more likely to be targeted for assault so that they can defend themselves, instead of training intimidatingly fit athletes to defend themselves/others considering there are already so many schools for such people. my mind is leaning largely toward pursuing study of wing chun and possibly also tai chi chuan(though, judo and aikido are possibilities). my main issue is in figuring out a way to regularly travel to a dojo and train(can't teach without being taught by credible instructors), as there aren't any in town for any of the forms mentioned.
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