" squandered opportunities " ? Outta town ?

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The people on this board who , earlier , were dissing me as having " tons of squandered opportunities " or similar , and disliking my desire , when going to CCSF in January seemed possible , of having " aride and a shoulder " to a projected All-In-One regist7rat7ion/testing/counseling - Well , this is aimed at you .
I can't see what opportunities " I pissed away bar , unless , you think I did bad with the CCSF thing .
If it's that you were mad at me for wanting " a ride + " - well , maybe it's that you felt " I wasn't suffering enough " !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...For the applying to the actual college and for aid , I stick by my statement that I NEEDED HELP ! (Note . The past tense .) , even MORE than I needed help for the registration-test-counseling event/s - You simply cannot fill o-ut applicat7ions alone .
Certainly not ME , old and embittered and scarred . An actual 17-yr old , such as the application system is bu9ilt for , could not do it alone - I I would have much less verve and pep than/he , probably less (You think ?) being spit in the face repeatedly by the College-Industrial Complex experienced by her/him .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I'm not planning to die , but I might print out the list of " what-to-do-if-I-die " for the friend who I named as a heir/executor .
You know , I am coughing so much ! that I could get thrown out of the shelter where I am .
I spit up/cough up water , too .
Maybe I would like to get out of town , but San Francisco is - in both good and bad senses - familiar .
As far as getting a place goes , there is a long-running minor issue with Social Services here that could prevent me that I've never gone into here .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

You might have difficulties going to the college if you don't have a place.

But you can fill out most of the application. Whatever you have difficulty with, ask us.

Forget about this "college/industrial complex" stuff.

I'm not a genius---and I can fill out an application.

You might even be smarter than I in some ways.

...I need help .
Period . Without it I can't do it .
I'm hardly very " smart " certainly not i0n " degrees/accomplishments " sene .
I . NEED . HELP .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

You have complex problems which are preventing you from taking this step.

I truly think--if you give yourself time--that you will be able to successfully fill out the application. Honestly.

There's "something" telling you that you are not able to fill out the application. I don't know what it is.

But it's not a hard thing to do. My IQ is not very high--but I succeeded in graduating college with a good GPA.

It's about concentration, man. Just try it one day when you feel decently. The hardest thing may be starting it.

I'm a great procrastinator. I can't start things. But...when I actually start, things just flow.

Just try it one day. Put your name and address, and the schools you attended. I don't even think you have to write an essay for this application.

...If you are my friend , please stop making this cruel joke .
NOTHING will happen , application-wise , if I do not have help .
Period .
You had a support system , and status , around you .
I only got as partially far as I did in/around November , because I had that worker's help .
Period .
I . Need . Help .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

I'm not trying to make a joke, Sir.

I don't have "status." That's a joke LOL

I just wish you could find a way to get back your public library privileges---even if it means kissing a little butt.

ASS-P I've been following your posts and if seems to me that you need to get your housing and health needs stabilized before starting college. Perhaps you can work on those things and start school the next semester. Also you might try to take a course or two before taking on a full schedule. I think everyone here wants the best for you.

Exactly. That's what I would advocate: ASS-P taking it a course at a time.

It took me eight years to get my Bachelor's.

It took my mother about 13 years for her to get hers.

...You have a " normal " life and a living family and standard job/citizen status ~ This all makes you a Rockefeller in contrast to me .
I have been SPAT UPON ! by the College-Industrial Complex again and again ~ This has included the person i charge of adult registration (that I would have had to have gone through) calling the campus police on me to get me thrown out on my very first visit (& last ) to one place , and , at another place , a fairly well-known New York one ~ the f***s there saying " Oh , we'll keep you on the list for a year "~Lying there .
The standard applying machine is designed for a " standard " 17-yr old - But you would not tell that 17-yr old to apply all on his(her) lonesome - And they have youth , and energy , are full of come(estrogen) ~ and proably haven't been spat in the face repeatedly by life itself and the C-IC like I have As far as the difficulty of doing homework/off-class work in my current position , there is a highly strict 9:30 lights out at that shelter , people who think shelters are some vegitarian punk-rocker/hippie place of everybody holding hands together before dinner and singing Minor Threat and Arlo Guthrie covers are full of s**t ~
When I first tried to go , seriously , to CCSF back in or near November , I thought , and I think even said here , that I might not actually be able to go in January , even if all went right ~ Then , the female worker helped , I felt optimistic - I asked for help in the registration , etc. , and especially when the female worker became inaccessible to me ~ And no one would help me .
Basically , anyway?? , irt was " Shouldn't you get everything residentially right first " possible before I was out of the stabilazation room Then , there was encouragement for me applying and going to the registration - But only if I did it 100% myself , on my own .
I JUST CANNOT DO THAT ! !! !! !! !! Period .
One WP-er , eventually , from far away did offer help , finally - However , with time's passage , and the roblem with the card lost , it became rather late plus that person was rather strongly relying on a third person , here in San Francisco , who was supposed to reach out to me , to meet me ~
I have yet , even to this date , to meet that person .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Nobody threw you out in San Francisco.

But I understand how what happened when you applied to college previously could affect you later.

I'm quite aware that shelters suck. I never thought you were in some "hippy haven" or whatever.

If you were able to get that housing/SRO situation before, why can't you get it now?

...There's a certain (minor) long-term thing with Social Services in SF against me - which I think I have briefly mentioned - for one .
I was thrown out of the recent stabalization room , for just one ~ Because someone who greatly disliked me decided to bith about me



quote="kraftiekortie"]Nobody threw you out in San Francisco.

But I understand how what happened when you applied to college previously could affect you later.

I'm quite aware that shelters suck. I never thought you were in some "hippy haven" or whatever.

If you were able to get that housing/SRO situation before, why can't you get it now?[/quote]

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Your health is better, right? You got thrown out because you were defecating all over the sheets, not because of some behavior problem.

You mentioned you had a "minor problem"---but I don't know what it is.

I do hope you are able to get in some situation where you can get your own room.

...It wasn't the sheets , it was someone , who already greatly disliked me from a previous place , disliking the discernable poop stains on my pants , as I walked back from the bathroom (which I could hardly help ~ Especially since I was out of money at that moment and as it turned out beginning that lengthy " money-gone " period) , not anything that happened in my room .
As I think I have at least trid to say to-day , that " lead-mercury " some kind of old , harmful additives , old-buildings stuff appears to be affecting me , if in a different manner , at the present shelter too !

You know , I have hours with NOTHING to do ~ No computer , no TV , no radio even ~ Or even an ability to legally turn on a light and read .