I would like to say how I would hope it can be understood that this isn't in the 'politics, philosophy, and religion' sub-forum due to me having considered it differently.
While I was at school doing homework online, while on my back to the computer I was sitting at, I came across a newspaper where the front cover mentioned euthanasia. I am not currently concerned with discussing it (hence a reason for which this isn't the in the 'politics, philosophy, and religion' sub-forum), although I would like to say how for what it's with, in my opinion it is arguably a topic in which due to uber-special circumstantial and volitional factors there might never be a 'nothing or all' way to speak to it.
What got to me was how after seeing the newspaper front cover, I felt guilty. I'm not going to lie, perhaps in part because of how the consistency of what 'equanimity' was present wasn't going to remain the same, I went back to computer I was working on, thinking thoughts along the line/to the effect of,while trying to do homework "..did I see that because I haven't done certain spiritual practices lately?,b/c I haven't good enough, a person lately?, a ..'~punishment..'.. of a kind for something 'unfavorable', I might have done recently?,is it my fault? is it a sign of something in a thought that I'm obligated to make sense of that issue?".
There is no reason for me to stop doubting (goodness knows, how that ties in with my anxiety), and this continues even while I'm doing something which 'I'm about' (graduating from Mohawk college) and doing something which I find important in the practice of doing that (doing homework). When I was seeing someone in regard to intrusive thoughts a while ago, cognitive distortions were brought up as were methods in how to engage with them (links related to what was given to me http://jomgine.deviantart.com/art/Daily ... -658887440 and http://jomgine.deviantart.com/art/Unhel ... -658887853); it's something which I can improve on, not the least 'the evidence technique'.
I think, what I mean to ask is for what reason is there me to stop doubting that something which I can very well think was not due to me/'my fault' and outside of a circle of control (the article might well have been prepared weeks ahead before me having had homework struggles last week), outside of a "might makes right" approach of someone saying 'b/c I told you so!' and threatening me to proceed onto something else. Try not to 'lapse' into a self-debate about Cartesian like skepticism and epistemic responsibility.
22 Jan 2017, 12:14 am
