I Have to be Strong

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I've attempted suicide a year from now. I've got this heavy tension inside my chest, some sort of a fire about to ignite but refuses to.

I'm a suspected Aspie. I've got diff sorts of Diagnoses but non of which is ASD, well, not that I know completely what my Psychiatrist has to say.

I've got this debilitating Depression and Anxiety, which are exacerbating since the past week. There are random times like when I just lose my appetite at the middle of a good snack, or I just feel sad outout of the blue for all those bad things happened in the past and to my present insufficiencies.

Some of us can relate and some others of us can imagine and are there with you. Talk to us here, though ignore the haters.

Ask your psychiatrist what he has to say, if he's made up his mind yet. Tell him your symptoms if he doesn't know, and if you trust him to deal with that information appripriately according to you.

A lot of people on this board are there with you, experiencing the same thing, and a lot of others are also here for you.

I can totaly relate to this Owl123 , my last suicide attempt was 2 years ago now , I also suspect I might be an Aspie ( waiting on a Dx ) but definately have Depression & Anxiety which can be crippling at times , all I can say is your right "You must be strong" , the road to recovery can sometimes be long and painful but it does get better even though you can't see it happening.

Thank you so much. This is the only place I've been sharing about my Aspie self-suspicion. And to tell you straight from my heart it pulls a huge amount of pain in me knowing that those sappy nights I've been crying my soul out are somehow felt by other people around me.

Thank you. Extending my deep gratitude. For me, having an Aspie Dx would probably not just a label or mere scapegoat. But rather, yeah, to somehow make me understand that of all of those deficiencies I have, there is this name you call it and that I no longer have to hate myself or anyone and anything for all of those. Because knowing for a fact that I am not just a fraud who quits doing her best and that there is something innate in you that you could hone to be better is better than believing that what all you so is not yourself and that you are just being "lazy","stupid", or "ninny"

My advice is don't put all your hope in getting a Dx because if you are not an Aspie it could be devastating for you if your not. I personaly think you should see you assessment as the next part of the puzzle , that way if you not an Aspie you can cross that off the list and do more research. If I don't get Dx as an Aspie I hope the Dr can point me in the right direction of whats wrong with me.

Well, first of all, I really have no plans telling my psychiatrist about Asperger's. Because from my last checkup, he told me that giving labels wouldn't matter much than how he manage his patient,which I got his point.

One way of gauging my self suspicion is through asking from forums and sharing my own experiences.

Secondly, I want that my psychiatrist himself point it out to me rather than I myself about any hint of Autism Spectrum Disorders.

That very same reason because I believe in the competence he'd been through being a psychiatrist.

Third is, what prevents him actually from spilling any diagnosis is the fact that I'm a student nurse from a top university in our country, and being in a health care setting would cause a huge stigma of whatever diagnosis I have that's why at first, I was the one who insisted to know my Diagnoses.Cos he really meant to hide it from me.

Just a caution: Many psychiatrists are hesitant because they don't actually have much background with ASD, sometimes no experience at all. When my wife asked my psychiatrist to evaluate me for ASD, he was honest about not knowing much about it and sent me to a psychologist who diagnosed me. But even some psychologists who don't specialize in ASD are also lacking experience. If you want to find out if you have ASD, I strongly recommend finding someone who specializes in it.