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morimori
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16 Feb 2017, 9:43 pm

So today I had something upsetting happen. I think I had a meltdown but at the same time I could "suck it in" and not act on it when other people were around. When I was alone I couldn't keep it in and I was growling/squeaking, flapping/clapping and hitting myself, but I could keep it together when I didn't want people to see me act like this. Sound familiar to anyone or am I just weird?



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17 Feb 2017, 2:57 am

Sounds like you are autistic but over the years figured out how to hold it in, in public.


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17 Feb 2017, 3:31 am

I have been married for ten years now. I break down unless he consoles me. He is my rock. Without him I will turn into a ball of emotions.



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17 Feb 2017, 3:47 am

He's got Jack Johnson playing to ease my nerves. He knows me.



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17 Feb 2017, 4:25 am

morimori wrote:
So today I had something upsetting happen. I think I had a meltdown but at the same time I could "suck it in" and not act on it when other people were around. When I was alone I couldn't keep it in and I was growling/squeaking, flapping/clapping and hitting myself, but I could keep it together when I didn't want people to see me act like this. Sound familiar to anyone or am I just weird?


I'd call that touch and go meltdown. Growling/squeaking, flapping/clapping and hitting self, is typical autistic behavior when upset. I do the same.



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18 Feb 2017, 12:39 am

ASPartOfMe wrote:
Sounds like you are autistic but over the years figured out how to hold it in, in public.


My experience of meltdowns have sort of been all or nothing. Either I'm an uncontrollable wreck or I'm fine. I didn't know if something like this counted or if it was something else entirely.

But I feel comforted by people responding in the affirmative. Thank you.